At this moment I'm ready to let my tears fall
Let them spill and choose the spots
They don't want dry anymore.
How can I explain my labored breaths?
The way my chest feels heavy
The way my fingers fidget,
Caressing and holding nothing,
I don't think I can
How do I explain the screams that are held within me,
My head a constant fog
Pulsating with words that I don't know how to let out
Words
These stupid
Inconsiderate
Impatient
Words
That are unfair
Truths hidden within lies
Words that no one else seems to want to hear
So I confine them
Forcefully hoping they'll transform into images
That can become dreams
Inside this heavy mind of mine
That won't let me rest
When can I finally rest?
My heart screams to cry
To laugh and smile,
At times when are inconvenient
When will I find the time
When will time be made for these thoughts
Feelings
My eyes don't know where to look;
the shelves of romance books that my heart can't seem to stop shoveling a path of destruction through
Or
To my phone where I know my fingers are waiting to type out or even call the recipient of these stupid, childish words
They won't understand, I say as I try to shush the loudness that I create within myself
Maybe they won't, but who cares?
Who. Cares??
Jump and let yourself fall, they try to convince me.
SCREAM IT OUT.
STOP STAYING QUIET.
SAY IT.
SPEAK IT.
LET IT BE
i can't. god.....i can't.
I wish I could I-i want to. Let me want it bad enough that I just do it.
That I no longer care. That I stop planning and just fall into wherever my words make me land.
Either into your arms,
Or back in this bed I lay in but without a heavy heart and mind.
Tell me what to do.
Please
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A Book of Words That Never Seem To Be Enough
PoetryA book filled with words that I thought made sense, but they never seem to be enough. *warning* emotional, messy, raw and full of sadness (sometimes a little happiness here and there) I hope you give my words a chance, maybe they'll be enough for yo...
