Is it possible to be okay
but not okay
all at the same time?
I'm asking
because I want an answer.
I want someone to tell me,
to guide me.
I want someone to let me know that
this feeling and this pit
of loneliness and desperation I feel
in my lungs and heart
has not only ever been felt by me.
I feel like I can't say anything.
If I say something,
people will think that I am just
looking
for attention.
I'm not. I'm really not.
I promise I'm okay.
I was doing okay,
I really was.
I was doing fine,
but then this clawing at my chest started again.
I tried
to
ignore it.
But I could only ignore
the ripping
and the blood for so long
before I finally looked down
at my hands that were stained red
I can't tell you.
I can't.
I could if I would but I can't.
You do not know me in this way,
and I know that
that is how
it is meant
to
be.
We are nothing.
I am nothing to you.
But I'm so desperate to be something.
Anything.
I do not want to go back to my old ways.
I can't.
I know I can't.
So...
do I disappear again?
Do I make myself so unknown to the world
so then
I would feel unknown to you
as if it were something normal?
Maybe.
I don't know. I'm so confused.
someone,
please tell me what to do.
I am not okay.
Please help me feel okay.
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A Book of Words That Never Seem To Be Enough
PoetryA book filled with words that I thought made sense, but they never seem to be enough. *warning* emotional, messy, raw and full of sadness (sometimes a little happiness here and there) I hope you give my words a chance, maybe they'll be enough for yo...
