Disturbed

Heart broken

I walked down the crowded hallway in search for Niall and there he was talking to his friends. His face lit up when he saw me which only broke my heart a little bit more. It's for his own good, he will be safe. I walked up and all of his friends turned to face me.

"Hey babe." Oh Niall please don't. "Something up?" He asks.

"Erm yeah can I talk to you for a minute. Alone." I gulped. I could feel the tears coming but I knew I had to fight it back. He would get over me right?

"Sure." He said looking confused and stepping away from his friends. When we we was far enough away from anyone I finally let it out.

"Niall I..." Deep breathes I told my self. "You see- I. It's not you it's me ok I-" I started.

"Don't give me that bullshit!" He shouted. His pale skin was reddening and not in the cute way of when he blushes but because he is beyond angry. "So I tell you how I feel, pay for an expensive meal and then you just decide to leave me!" I could literally see his heart braking.

"No Niall it's not like that! I have no choice, I don't want you to get hurt." I shouted back. I was trying so hard not to cry. He was the only peace of happiness I had right now and it was being snatched away from me and torn into millions of pieces.

"And don't you think this is hurting me?" His voice broke and I was afraid he was going to cry. If he cried then I was done, so done. I don't know how much more of this I can take.

"I don't want to hurt you Niall." I croaked, a tear secretly slipping out. And before I knew it his arms where being wrapped around my waist and I flung mine around his neck. He held me in his strong embrace. I couldn't help but cry I was loosing him like I had lost everyone else.

"Then don't." He hummed in my ear. If only he knew that I was protecting him. Niall made a loud moan of pain and I quickly pushed my self away from him. His face was scrunched up and he was holding his chest tightly. What the hell was going on? I scanned the room and of course Harry was there looking deep into to Niall. Could Niall see him?

"Leave him alone!" I shouted and then Niall fell the the floor. I ran to his side and grabbed his hand in mine. "Niall it's ok." I assured him but then another scream of pain was let out and his chest jerked forward. His eyes started to flutter closed and I could see me loosing him right then and there. No he can't go.

"Harry stop! I shouted turning to him. "Stop! I am leaving him just stop, stop hurting him." And then all of Niall's body relaxed and his breathing was heavy. A huge load of relief washed over me. Niall was still alive and Harry had gone. "Oh my god Niall I need to get you to a nurse!" I worried getting up from my spot.

"Georgia who is Harry?" I nodded my head no.

"It doesn't matter Niall lets get you some help." I said pulling him up.

"Your leaving me?" He asked once we had gotten up and I nodded.

"I have to Niall." He huffed.

"Can I least get a goodbye kiss?" He asked.

"I dunno Niall I don't want you to get hurt." I started.

"Please?" He begged and I couldn't help but bring my lips to his. This would be our last kiss and I wanted to savour every moment. I loved the way his mouth moved with mine and how he pulled me closer as if there was to much space between us. I loved how his fingers would explore my hair and give light tugs. He was perfect and I just couldn't have him. I pulled away slowly and gave him the best smile I could. I would tell him I love him but Harry wouldn't respond to that very well so I simply just walked him to the school nurse and left him.

This was my first day back at school since the deaths and I am already bunking off. I needed air and I needed a brake. My whole world was crumbling down and I didn't know how much longer I would be able to stand. Everything and everyone was being taken away from me and I just wondered why. Why does this have to happen to me? I never tried to rob or steal from anybody, lord why does this have happen to me? The pain in my chest was just becoming stronger and stronger. I long for that feeling not to feel at all. I do the only thing I can do that takes the pain away and that is to take the blade and cut my skin. I couldn't wait any longer. I wasn't strong I was weak and I just wanted to die. I ran I to the bathroom and looked the door.

"AHHH!" I screamed before the tears start falling again. How much more do I have to go through before he finally kills me? Why can't he just get it over and done with?

I grabbed the blade from the cabinet that I hid brought it to my skin. I lightly skimmed it at first not making a cut so a did it harder and the blood appeared. I had to much guilt and pain inside, I wanted it to be over. I cut another line just above and then another. The tears streaming down and the blood pouring onto the floor.

"Stop! What are you doing!" I voice shouted but I couldn't make it out from my cries. A hand grabbed the blade from my reach and chucked it to the floor. "Georgia! Georgia look at me!" It said grabbing my shoulders and making me face them. His green worried eyes locked onto mine. I tried to push my self away. "Georgia stop!" He shouted and I got away from his grip and fell backwards into the bathtub landing with a thump.

"Go away!" I cried.

"Georgia stop! Stop!" He repeated coming closer and could it be? Were his eyes actually watery? Could this be?

"I hate you!" I screamed and he just grabbed me and pulled me into his arms. I sat on his lap, him on the floor. I was crying and I was numb, if I could move away from him I would. He took everything!

"I'm sorry." He whispered.