It's Him I love

The Birthday Phenomenon

Jin

"Today is my birthday. My mom gave this world an amazing human being, an handsome man, a godly man..."

"Dont make me kill you on your birthday" Yoongi stopped my monologue. My only audience Jimin and Hoseok started to laugh at Yoongi's comment.

"Seriously hyung. I really wish I get your level of confidence at least for a day." said Hoseok.

"Me too. I would die for his confidence." he said with a genuine smile and big eyes.

"You guys really need to stop encouraging him. He speak nonsense when he is over confident."

"I was over confident about my relationship theories and guess what? You got a boyfriend coz of it. So be grateful and stop bitching." I said slapping his arms.

"Yes. We should be grateful." said Jimin as he sat closer to Yoongi hugging him from the side. Hosoek went into the kitchen and picked an apple.

"Did your family call already?" Jimin asked

"Yeah my parents did. My bro facetime'd me for just a minute but it's fine."

"That's cool." He replied

"So that morning one hour phone murmur was with your parents?" asked Yoongi.

"No. That was Tae."

"Ofcourse. It was Tae." Yoongi said and took the empty coffee cup from my hand and Jimin's and took them to the kitchen sink.

"Why? What's wrong with Tae?" Hosoek asked Yoongi.

"Nothing. It's just that our brother only talks about him ALL THE TIME." said Jimin emphasising "all the time" with a smug face and Hosoek nodes like he understood.

I haven't been talking about him all the time. May be sometimes but not all the time. I speak about my work, my time from office to home. My time with Tae but also about the time I spend alone.

I didn't realise I was speaking all out loud until Yoongi acted a cough and said "Your work? where Tae works? Your time from office to home? Where Tae accompanies you? Your alone time? Which you spend talking to Tae on phone?"

Yoongi isn't wrong. Its been nine weeks since Tae, Kook joined my firm. Within a week Namjoon left his old job and joined Tae and Kook to work for our firm. Since then Kook accompanies Namjoon to home whereas Tae and I spend almost every every evening with each other. It's been an awesome nine weeks. I got to know about his artistic views, his views on politics, his views on historic architecture, his view on fairytales and whatnot. Everything about him is perfection. Sometimes I just want to hug him tight and give him an assurance that he is the finest.

He is the finest. Today, he called me exactly at 12. I didn't even expect him to remember my birthday. He cut his call after wishing, asking me to enjoy it with these three dummies who came crashing into my room with a huge cake in hand. He heard them scream happy birthday and he was being considerate like ever. I felt very bad for him. So as soon as the sun came up, I called him and didn't realise that we spoke for almost two hours straight. It's funny how I spend almost all my day with him and yet we have millions things to talk. Sometimes even our silence is comforting.

"Hyung? Why are you staring like that?"Jimin asked bringing me out of my Trance.

"He is comforting." I blurbed.

"What?" they asked in unison.

"Tae is comforting."

"Okay. You want to talk about him?"

"Huh?" I was still thinking about Tae.

Why?

Why?

Why do I feel like this?

Why do I feel like he is my person?

Is this how some friendship feels like?

I don't feel like this with Yoongi, my best friend. Then why do I feel like this.
Too many thoughts were clouding my head.

"Huh........huh........huh ...."

"Hyung."
"Hyung?"
"Jin?"

they all say as they come closer looking at me
I slowly turn to Yoongi and said
"Yoongiya, I want to talk to you alone."

"Guys, give us a minute." he said and walked with me to my room and closed the door behind him.
I didn't wait for him to ask me anything.

"Yoongiya!! Is this friendship?"

"Ours ?"

"No. Mine and Tae's."

"You need to tell me, Jin."

"Yoongiyaaaa...." I say like a cry.

"Considering the times I have seen you both together in these past few weeks, you are awfully touchy, mushy, cute around him. You are also quite protective and possessive of him. Knowing you, I can clearly see there is something more than friendship between you two. But I don't know if you like guys or bisexual or you are just curious for that matter. So I better stay quiet."

Guys? Bisexual? Curious?

"Quiet? You just made me question my sexuality and speaking about being quiet? All I wanted to know was if this a different kind of friendship."

"Don't fool yourself. I am your friend. We don't speak all the time. We don't hold on to each other like our lives dependent on it. We don't fall asleep talking to one another over phone. I know your limits with friends Jin. What you have with Tae isn't just friendship, Jin and since you mentioned Tae is gay, his actions kinda proves that he is interested in you. That guy doesn't even want to call you Hyung and he is three years younger to you."

"Huh?? Tae is interested in me?"

"Before that... think whether you are interested in him as more than a friend. If not don't overdo your friendship thing and give that poor guy false hope. If you do, then do something about it already."

"Huhhhh..."

"We are leaving for the movie in 10 minutes. Better clear your head and come out on time" he said and left my room leaving me wondering about everything.

It's definitely an hell of a birthday.