It's Him I love

Movie, Dinner and Confusions

Jin

The walk from the cinema theatre to the restaurant was.... RIDICULOUS. Jimin bickered about the bad popcorn. Yoongi bickered about how the bad guy in the movie was far better actor than the main actor. Hosoek bickered about how he will never meet a girl like the heroine in the movie. I would slap them if I could. First they twisted my words,thoughts and made me question my sexuality. Then they behaved like nothing life-changing happened to me. And now all they want to talk about is about that awful movie which had no plot, no logical romance and not about my confused mind. Wow. I really have great friends. I couldn't take it anymore.

"Yaah! Show some concern, will you?" I asked hoping to pour guilt on all three of them.
"We don't care." said Yoongi. This ungrateful idiot.
"I will kill you." I muttered with aggression.

Jimin and Hosoek didn't wanted to meddle in our conversation. Hence they continued to speak about that awful movie. Again.

I don't care. I can't think too much into this anymore. I shouldn't bother myself over this. My agenda towards life is pretty simple. Speak it out. Speak about confusions, issues etc. It always provides you some kind of clarity. So I am going to talk to Tae. Why bother pondering over something that may not even be there in the first place. What if he isn't interested me at all? What if Yoongi was wrong? Then, I don't have to worry or do I?

I couldn't free myself from these thoughts even while having our dinner. I kept looking at Tae who was sitting diagonal to me. Tae as usual was very quiet. Jimin made some small talks with Kook and Tae. Namjoon Hosoek and Yoongi had some serious talks about Hip Hop music. It was quiet surprising to see Namjoon know so much about Hip Hop. Tae once mentioned that they save up some money just to buy albums. I never realised that they were this obsessed. I am glad I made friends with these three. I am glad all six of them find each other interesting in one way or other. I am glad Tae, Kook and Namjoon can feel that they belong somewhere.
I am glad Tae can have more people to trust.
I am glad Tae can smile and laugh wholeheartedly with more than two people.
I am glad Tae has us. I am glad that I have Tae.
Once again, my confusions arise as I think more about him.

What would happen if he says he likes me?

What would happen if he says he didn't like me?

What would happen if he mistakes me for misunderstanding him?

What would happen to us? What would happen to what we have?

I decided to not wait until  some day to talk about this to Tae. I wondered how will I get an alone time with him without triggering the others. We finished our dinner and came out of the restaurant. Kook Namjoon Hosoek said byes to one another and wished me a very happy birthday and decided to leave. Hosoek was the first to leave. Kook held on to Tae as he was leaving with them. I really didn't get to talk to him the whole evening. I realised he was hoping to say something but was hesitant. I figured this could be the right time.

"So are we just heading home now?" I asked looking at Tae.
"Yes." replied Yoongi.
"I don't want to go home already. Let's go for a walk may be." I made it sound like a cute plea.
"Hyung!! I am tooooo tired." pouted Jimin.
"I am not tired but I don't want to walk. So we are going home." said Yoongi.
I would like to lock this jerk in a bird cage for a day. He hates bird poop so I would gladly feed him that.

"Ok. You leave. Hosoek left already. That leaves with Tae, Kook and Namjoon" I say hoping the other two would leave too.
"Taehyung -ah, why don't you walk with Jin hyung? Kook and I will get groceries and head home." said Namjoon, the wisest. I can't thank him enough for this. Tae nodded and finally they all left leaving Tae and I behind.
I couldn't be more happier.