It's Him I love

The Realisation

Jin

Tae and I had a quiet walk time. I didn't know how to start my interrogation. Once again, my contradicting thoughts were ravishing my mind.

"Did you have a good birthday Jin?" Tae asked ending our silent time.
I wanted to say "No" but I said "Yes. It was a good day. Thanks to you guys."
He smiled lightly. Tae doesn't smile a lot but when he does that's the purest thing you will ever see. I am fortunate to even witness it.

Urgggggghhh.

"Tae. I want to ask you something."
"Sure. What is it?"
"Huhhhh... I wanted to ask if y" I was interrupted by Tae's phone. He excused himself before picking up the call.

"Ya Hyung, what is it?"
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"What?
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"How?"
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"I am coming. I will be there."
Tae cut the call and turned towards me. His eyes were filed with fear and anger.

"I need to go." he said in a stern voice.
"What happened?"
" It's...I need to go."
"I will come with you."
"No. Don't. I will talk to you later. Bye." He ran.
He didn't give me a chance to convince him. What's happening?
I called Namjoon hoping that he was the one who called him. His phone was not reachable. I tried Kook and he didn't pick the phone. Damn. What's happening? I decided to run behind him but what if he hates me for not listening to him.

Grrrr.
I called Yoongi.

"What now bday boy? Bored of walking?" he ask laughing at his own question.
"Yoongiya, something is wrong. Tae received a call and he ran away. I don't know where he went. Both Namjoon and Kook are not reachable. I don't know what to do. What if something is terribly wrong. What if he hurt himself." I kept talking until I lost breathe.
"Jin. Listen to me one minute. First take a deep breathe. He will be fine. Send me their address. I will meet you there. Don't panic. Try to reach there in one piece please. Please?"
"You sure? He asked me not to come."
"Ok then cool. Take a good walk and come home." He replied sarcastically.
"YOONGIYAAAA! You know what? You are right. I don't care if he hates me after this. I want to know that he is fine. I want them all to be fine. I want him not get hurt. Oh god, what if he gets hurt? I will send you is address now."
"Okay. I will meet you there."

I quickly sent their address to Yoongi and decided to take a cab to their place. I reached their place and saw Yoongi and Jimin standing there. They had just reached and so we went straight to their room. The street and  their building looked normal like everyother day. There wasn't any indication of anything serious to have happened. I was really hoping that they would be here. Where on earth are they? Where on earth is Tae?

I kept calling their phone but none of them picked our calls. Jimin reminded us about how Namjoon and Kook were planning to go grocery shopping and asked me if I knew where they could have gone. Tae and I have done grocery shopping couple times in the nearby mart. We decided to go there and check if something was wrong. As we reached the mart, we could see there was quite a crowd surrounding the entrance. We went closer to ask people what happened and thats when we noticed the blood stains on the entrance. We were told that a group of people started attacking on the two customers and then there was a fight. Finally, three got severely injured, two broke their bones and the rest ran away. We were told that they were taken to the nearby hospital in ambulances. I couldn't process anything I heard.
It's clearly Namjoon and Kook who were the customers. So Tae came here to help them in a fight? In a freaking fight? Why didn't he tell me? What if he is the one who is severely injured? I can't see him hurt anymore. He can't be hurt like that. No.
I started crying loudly. Jimin hugged me and started to cry himself. Yoongi asked me to pull myself together and assured me that nothing will happen to them. I couldn't believe him. I knew something had happened to them. Something had happened to Tae.
We reached the nearby hospital to see if they were there. As we entered the reception area, we heard someone calling us "HYUNG!" and that was Namjoon.
"Namjoon-ah!!!" I hugged him tightly.
"Why wouldn't you pick your phone hyung? How are you? Where is Tae? Where is Kook?" Jimin asked.
Namjoon didn't answer but kept sobbing.
"Did you do your first aid? You don't look good yourself." Yoongi asked.
"I am fine hyung. It's Tae and Kook am worried about. They got bad injuries." he cried.
"Don't cry hyung. We are here. Don't worry." Jimin hugged him and tried to console him. Namjoon asked us to follow him to the wards where they are being treated. Jimin and Yoongi went with Namjoon but  I couldn't move.

Tae is injured.

Tae is injured again.

I promised myself that I won't let him get hurt.

And I let him get injured, badly.

I shouldn't have left him run away from me.

I should have stopped him.

I should have ran with him.

I shouldn't have left him.

I hate myself.

"I HATE MYSELF" I scream and start to cry.
A familiar body embraced me.
"Jin. Please. Relax." Yoongi said as he hugged me.

"Yoongiya... I can't see him hurt again. I can't yoongiya."

"It's okay Jin. He is going to be fine. Please don't cry."

"I don't want him to be hurt. I can't see him hurt."

"Ok Jin. I understand."

"No you don't understand. I love him. I love him Yoongiyaaaa."

Yes, I love him.

I love Tae.

I love my Tae.