It's Him I love

An Unearthly Moment

V

There was a loud knock on the door. Kook and I were stunned by the noise. I really thought some of our beloved haters have shown up again. I quickly went closer to the door and asked who it was. It was Jin. All he said was "Open the door". I can't mistake his voice. He was standing on the other end of the door but I couldn't open it. was afraid that I will loose my battle with him. He will see through my lies. I needed a backup plan before I open the door.

As I was thinking, Kook quickly moved me to the side and opened the door letting Jin in. Kook gave us both a quick comforting look and left the room.

"Kook-ah" I called.

I realised that he wasn't coming back then. Jin kept staring at me as he closed the door behind him.

"Taehyung" he called. That was the first time he called me by that name. I felt too distanced from him already. What was I expecting? This was bound to happen. I can't be greedy to have his friendship when I rejected his love. I didn't know what discussion could happen from that point.

"Taehyungaaaah" he said in a husky voice as he moved closer to me. His puffy face was evident that he hasn't been sleeping well. His reddish eyes were starting to become more glossy than ever. He came closer and closer as I walked backwards towards the wall. I couldn't move anymore as I was stuck between the wall and Jin. He was standing so close to me that I was able to feel his breathe on me. It was soothing to have him closer to me. The thought 'Why can't I let go of my insecurities and confess my love to this man in front of me' kept lingering in my head. I have been in love with him for so long now. I didn't know what to do then. He slowly moved closer that there was no space between us. He hugged me tight. I wanted to hug him back, so tight and never let him go but I didn't and it hurt me so much.

"Hug me.... Please" he whispered while putting his head on my shoulder. How could I reject him then. I obliged. I slowly hugged him tighter and tighter that after a point we were practically grinding against each other. This closeness to his growing member gave mine a unearthly sensation. This was very new to me. The last time I was handled in way to feel this. But with Jin, nothing had to be forced. If a hug could do this to me, I couldn't decipher what would a real intimacy would do. I was taken aback from my dirty thoughts as he let go of me. He was still standing so close and looking down straight into my eyes. They were filled with tears and before I could understand what was happening, he kissed me.

His plump lips captures mine. He kissed them with passion and care. He began to lick my lower lip. I didn't want to stop it even though I knew this was only leading to a very bad heartbreak. But that particular moment, I could only taste his lips and think about what else he can do with them. He was so sweet and subtle with his actions. With no sense of what I was doing, I kissed him back passionately and I opened my mouth for him to take control off. His tongue entered my mouth and he kissed me like I have never been kissed before. If this is how true love kiss felt like I want it every minute of my life. As our kiss deepens, my member was getting harder and before I could control myself, he held me by my hip with both his hands and pushed me to my bed. As I was lying on my bed with utter shock and definite love for the man in front of me, he climbed on top of me. He was sitting on my throbbing member and the feeling was driving me crazy. He leaned down to kiss me again and this time he didn't go for my lip but my neck. He started to suck my neck and I wasn't able to feel anything but that. I wanted to rip his shirt off and plant my fingers on his broad shoulders. He was so close to my sensitive point that I was going insane. I needed to stop him before I can take myself back from the mess but I needed him. I needed this feeling with him. Having Jin kiss me like this, watching him crave for me made me feel special and naughty at the same time. He looked up at me and gave a bright smile. I believe he noticed my eyes that were expressing my ecstasy. He is after all the reason behind every possible happiness I had and he knew it.

His bright smile vanished as he stood up.

What just happened?

What did this whole thing mean?

Why did he do this?

Why did he stop?

Why?