It's Him I love

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Jin

I walked V to the bus stop and returned home. As I opened the door, I saw Yoongi sitting in the living room staring at the wall. Looking at him made me realise I left in the bus stop in the midst of our conversation to get V out of the police station. Yoongi must feel terrible about me. He needed me at that moment and I still left.

I walked straight to him and sat beside him.
"I am sorry Yoongiya"
"For what?"
"For leaving you in the bus stop."
"It's okay. I needed to be alone. Did you help that guy?"
"Really??.. huh yeah."
"Hmm good."
"Yoongiya you really need to open up to me. I worry about you a lot. You know that right?"
"I don't know if I am ready to lose you too Jin. Let things be the way it is, would you?"
"Hey, what's with everyone fearing to lose me?" First V and now Yoongi. What's with them losing me. I never realised I mattered at all until this moment.
"Who told you that before? Jimin?"
"Why would he fear losing me?"
"He likes you and he came to the dinner even after what happened. I am sure he cares for you." he replied with a stern voice.
"I don't understand Yoongi."
"Leave it. I am going to my room." he got up and I held his hand.
"No. Sit. Talk to me. If not today, then never Yoongi. You know I am not that person who waits."
He sighed and sat again.
"Tell me. Now."
"You know what, you tell me what happened tonight? Meanwhile I will figure out how to tell you."
"You and your conditions. Seriously? Okay. I got V out. Us and kook had dinner. I wanted to talk to V in private. I asked me to open up to me and start trusting in me. Yoongiya..I really sounded desperate. I am glad he didn't find me a creep."
"Are you sure he didn't?"
This sarcastic cat.
"Yaaa! He wouldn't have told me he is gay if he found me a creep."
Shit. I just blurted out.
"He is gay?"
"Yeah, don't mind that. Now tell me your story."
"You are okay being friends with gay?"
"Why wouldn't I?"
"I just thought... You never mentioned."
"I never had a gay friend before."
"What if I say you are wrong?"
"Huh?"
"I am gay Jin."
"So you gonna make jokes about being gay? Grow up Yoongi" I pinch his arm softly.
"I am not joking." Really?
"Oh."
"You don't hate me already? Willing to listen to my story still?"
"Idiot. Just tell me already. What's happening?"
Is it too much to process? yes. But I want to listen to what's bothering him first. I can process all at once then.
"Hoseok and Jimin were always hanging out with me in the office. I started to have feelings for Jimin. Jimin started to behave similarly. I thought he liked me too. I decided to ask him out on a date. I wrote "Will you go on a date with me?" in a paper and put it in his bag the other day. Hoseok saw the paper but didn't bother to ask who it was because Jimin always get approched by lots of girls. Jimin realised the paper was from me and since then it's been quite awkward between us. He hardly looks at me or talks to me. Yet, he hangs out with me and Hoseok all the time.

Today morning, I decided to talk to him. I told him that he doesn't have to feel awkward around me. I told him to forget that I ever gave him any indication at all. He didn't say anything. He just kept looking at his feet and I had to leave before Hoseok came. After an hour, Hoseok came to me held me by my collar and asked me why'd I hurt Jimin. I tried to not cause a scene. But then..."
"But then?"
"Jimin came crying to us. He asked me not to feel bad. He said he liked me too but .. he can't be out to the world. He can't be a proud gay while working with all those male idols. He said that it will ruin his career."
By now, Yoongi's voice was already very low and all I could hear was him murmur.
"So did Hoseok apologise?"
"All Jimin said to Hoseok was my name. So he came running to me thinking I hurt his beloved brother. Ass didn't even think twice about his bestfriend. He apologised later and that's when you texted us about dinner. They decided to join us to ease the tension but then you know how things went."
"Oh my great timing." I hit myself on the face.

"Why on earth did you invite them?"
"I figured you will do it anyways. I just thought I will call them out of courtesy."
"Whatever."
"Yah! Don't be angry with me now. I would probably beat the shit out of you for hiding all these from me until now. But I guess you are too tired. I will do it tomorrow."
"Thanks Jin. For understanding."
"You are my bestfriend Yoongiya."
"Whatever blurt master." he smirked
"YAAA!!"