Morning Blushes

prologue

I woke up around six a.m. in the morning. This is a good way to start boosting my productivity. Well, for me, this really helps. I started by drinking a full glass of water as soon as I get off my bed and washed my face. It's that basic. Too basic to be stuck with.

 I went to my desk at kinuha ko lahat ng kailangan ko. Instead of studying here inside, I've decided to study on the rooftop. It won't be that heavy since I'm just gonna do some revisions for the lessons we had this week. One reason why I prefer doing it here on the rooftop is that the sun rises perfectly in my view up here. How the shades of colors start to crawl up and dismiss the darkest blue of the day.

While waiting for the sunrise, I'm trying to fill myself with the positive energy I've been trying to have each day. Each and every day. All I wanted was to witness the morning twilight. I kept on thinking if  I'll still study or just look at how the sun rises. Lectures are going to end with a painful battle called quiz and it happens relentlessly with the same amount of expectations and standards. Thinking about that drains me already.

I picked up my notebook and stood up to take a clearer view of the horizon. The pigment of the sky is slowly softening into a lighter tint of pink, as the sun hiding behind the buildings from this view. I wonder who else in this world has the gut to wake up and take their moment to witness this glorious lapse. Ito na yata ang pinakatahimik na oras ng bawat araw ko. Parang dito lang din kumakalma ang utak ko sa mga iniisip. 

I moved closer and roamed my eyes up to where the colors stretch through the horizon. I wish I have all the energy to do this every day. Yung hindi ko na kailangang pagalitan ang sarili ko na bumangon at simulan na ang araw ko. It's getting harder each day but I'm trying to endure it. that's the best thing to do in my case.

I was in a serious state of deep-thinking when I heard a loud thud on the ground, signaling my system in an alarming state. I am hearing soft panting in distance, and that brought me into a conclusion na may ibang tao dito bukod sa sarili ko. My heart skipped a beat with that thought. Paglingon ko sa bandang kaliwa ko, a guy is standing at the very top of the rooftop's edges.

He was way too fast. I barely even noticed how he got here and where he came from. Worst, he's standing at the edge of the rooftop. Edge as in the tip of the corner. I suddenly felt chills all over my body, my forehead's starting to feel hot. I didn't notice I am holding my breath when he took another step. His toes are hanging on the open air and half of his feet aren't on the ground anymore. For the love of heaven, what the hell is this guy doing!

Pinagmasdan ko siya nang mabuti. He's wearing an oversized shirt so there's no way he's a thief. He's also wearing sweatpants and desirable running shoes. His hair actually looks the way it is when you wake up. Nagawa niya pang ilagay ang kamay niya sa hips niya like he's searching for something. He's facing the direction of the sun and just looking at the horizon just what I was doing before he came. This guy is driving me insane.

When the wind blows dramatically, ako na ngayon ang natatakot para sa kanya. At any time, pwede siyang malaglag doon. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko and I just wanna vomit with the idea of his downfall. Hindi siya natatakot at mukhang wala pa siyang pakialam. All of my fears gathered in the lump of my throat. I don't know what to do! 

I pulled my shit together and walked towards him. My hands are fidgeting, composing what to say to him. 

"Um, excuse me, this is private property."

A three-second silence passed by before he finally received the wave of sound which approximately took milliseconds to actually shook his senses. 

"I know, miss." The way he spoke, it's like he's not thinking what he's saying. 

I bit my lower lip, thinking of the next thing to say. I can't come up with a single one and my nerve is seriously going to explode anytime.

"Will you get off now?" I spoke in a hushed manner.

There's a three-second pause again. I just realized he's not even paying half of his attention to me. He's looking at the magnificence of the daylight. I almost missed the whole thing just because of checking him out cautiously.

I never talked to a person like this. I mean, look, no one ever climbed up here just to walk on the narrow edge. I hope this would never go anywhere worse. It'd probably be the death of me. 

"Hey, um, uh, it's dangerous up there. Will you please get off now?" I mumbled.

He looked at me. And that's the first time he turned his head towards my direction.

My hands started fidgeting. Natataranta ako. I felt either dangerous or in danger. No, not that feeling. It just felt strange when he faced me. His eyes are dark and bold. It's making me shiver. It's neither fearsome nor dangerous. It's intense and rather strange.

I broke our gaze and collected my things so I could leave him. He's not that scary but no one knows who he is. There's no way he's a thief either. He is literally strange for a stranger. And those eyes almost got me hypnotized.

"Don't you want to take a look?" He asked before I could leave.

It's uncomfortable to be around him and it's just the two of us. God, I don't know what to do to him. Will I shoo him away? Will I let him stay? And he seriously asked that as if we're some sort of friends? And how could he speak like he knows what I'm exactly doing here? And how could he talk like he wasn't ignoring everything I'm saying a few seconds ago?

I tried to look at him and our gazes met once again. Now, he's grinning at me, and that made everything a little weirder. I felt like a black hole sucked my soul somewhere in my stomach.

"What?" iritadong tanong ko.

"You're blushing." He smirked. "Good morning, miss."