*This books is rated M for Mature due to graphic sexual references and some profanity.
If you've ever wanted to know exactly what it's like to be Zac Efron's girlfriend, this story gives you a chance to find out.
This book, told from the perspective...
Jess and I found a nearby Target that was open and found a few pairs of matching Christmas pajamas. We went through the checkout and were making our way out to the car when I turned to her and said, "Let's go get a glass of wine or something?"
"Sure," she said as she got in the car. I drove a few blocks and we found a small wine bar that was open on the holiday. We made our way inside and grabbed our usual – a table in the far back corner, despite the fact the place was completely empty.
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Our waitress showed us how to use the wine taps and we each made a selection before returning to our little spot. I sat on a bench on one side of the table and she sat on a chair on the opposite side.
"Thanks for coming," I said.
"Well, thanks for suggesting it. I'm glad we could steal a few minutes – just the two of us – with our clothes still on," she smirked. I swallowed. "Zac, I'm joking," she said.
"Right. Well, speaking of that. I hope you know...I meant what I said this morning. I love you, Jessica. And I did long before anything ever got physical with us."
She stretched her leg out underneath the table, resting it against mine. "I know," she replied.
"And I know you said that it would be a long time until you could process your last relationship, and I know you're scared – I am too," I continued on, nervously. She held my hand in-between both of hers, gently stroking my palm.
"Zac, I know what I said," she interrupted me. I took a deep breath, bracing myself for the worst. "And I am terrified Zac."
I had imagined what I would say to her in this moment hundreds of times. Words, in that moment, didn't seem like enough to convey what I was feeling, but I gave it my best shot - speaking directly from my heart.
"I want you to know a few things. Can I just...put it all out on the table right now?"
"Sure."
"Since I had the realization that I was in love with you, I've done a lot of thinking - about what being together would really mean. I understand this is going to require a different level of commitment from me than what one would normally expect or be prepared to give this early in a relationship. I want you to know I realize how high the stakes are if this doesn't work out. You're in a much more vulnerable space because of everything you've gone through, and whether we like it or not, all eyes are going to be on us."
"You're right about that."
"Knowing and understanding all of that, I did a lot of self-reflection, so that I knew, if you ever were ready to take that next step, if I was capable of being the man you would need me to be. I don't know what the future holds for us, but I can promise you this - I will always be honest with you. I will do everything in my power to bring as much happiness and light to your life as you bring to mine. I will earn your trust and never give you a reason to question my intentions or loyalty to you."
