The Sky and You

Chapter 25: Thoughts of You

Belle was so tired, physically, mentally and emotionally. Yet sleep seemed to have abandoned her. She decided its about time she ask her friends. She ended up dialing Tanya's number.

"Tan," she called, "I want to know the truth... just who is Keun Suk Oppa to me."

It took a while before she answered. "I think you already know the answer to that."

"Is it true that I hurt him?" she continued to ask. Doubts were flooding her heart. How could she have hurt him. How could she have hurt the person she loves.

"You were hurt too. I don't even want to see that Belle who came back with us and the days after we left Japan. It was so painful."

"Then why? Why did that happen? If I was the one who left him, why am I hurt too? If I really love him, why hurt him in the first place? I don't understand?" she kept on asking, she can't contain her feelings anymore, doubts are filling her heart.

"I don't know. But knowing you, maybe you thought it was better for him without you. He was a star and you're just an ordinary fan. Against the shining stars surrounding him, you might have though you are just dust. You would often say before that the place where you stood in the dark is the best place for you, cause it is where you can see him shine more brightly.

"But Belle," she continued, "no matter how much I think about it, it felt like you were just running away. Think about it. Maybe before you have been weak but that is not the case now. Even without your memories you have become a different person, a much better version of yourself. I always knew you were strong Belle. We, Abby and I, always leaned on you and we never stopped believing in you. You're not a nobody you used to be. Make the right decision this time Belle and come back to us with a smile, okay?"

After that Tanya never asked her any questions or even inquired where she is or who she is with. There seemed to be a silent understanding between them. She have always believed in her too, for she and Abby are her bestfriends.

Belle came back to the room and laid diagonally, opposite Keun Suk Oppa. She watched his sleeping face once again. She can't help but smile with the way he snores. His nose was so tall from the bridge to the tip. His face has no make up yet even with the little scars left still he looked perfect... and his lips... what is there to say but perfect.

She felt her face blushed when she remembered the episode inside the car where he just suddenly grabbed and kissed her with those beautiful sexy lips. She thought the room suddenly became warm. She wanted to touch his face, caress his cheeks and feel him but she was afraid to wake him.

A lot of things were running in her mind. Thoughts of him, questions about her past, her decisions, her pain and her fears.

I can't deny it anymore that my heart is beating for you. But do you really love me? or you just wanted to get even for hurting you back then? I am doubting myself again. I don't know the Belle who hurt you, what her thoughts was, what kind of a coward she was. Maybe Tanya was right... I ran away, because your world is different from mine and it was only right to look at you from a distance. I guess that's what I thought back then. Right now, I can't even say I do not feel fear because that would be a lie, cause I do... so much. But inspite of it all, I can't deny this feeling too. It seems like I came back here in Japan to fall inlove with you, one more time.

Belle didn't realize she fell asleep with those thoughts in her mind.

The next day, she woke up and she was in bed. Keun Suk Oppa might have carried her, closed the blinds and turned on the aircon. She had a very nice sleep. She was comfortable and she doesn't know why. After taking a shower, Keun Suk Oppa came knocking on her door, bringing brunch for both of them. He was beaming that day while she can't even look at him in the eyes.