The Sky and You

Chapter 15: My Hearts Selfish Desire

"Where are you right now?" asked Tanya over the phone.

"At the most beautiful place in the entire world," she said.

"Yeah right!" she could imagine Tanya rolling her eyes at her answer. "What are you doing in AP Shop?"

She chuckled at how her friend managed to guess where she was at that moment with only that description. "What else should I be doing here? Ofcourse I am enjoying the beautiful view."

Belle looked up at the handsome man infront of her. He's still as handsome as ever, be it personal or a picture. She still couldn't believe it that when she woke last night at the hospital all the lost memories have returned to her and standing infront of her was the person she ran away from a year ago.

It pains her heart so much to remember the things she did, leaving him and giving him pain when all she ever wanted was for him to be happy. She thought that what he felt for her was just a fleeting romance and he'd forget about her like she never existed but she was wrong. Instead of a happy life, she ended up giving him pain because of her wrong choices.

But what is really the right choice back then. Is staying by his side with the old naive and incompetent me do them good or will it only hurt them even more, she thought. It pains her still for being weak, for lacking confidence, for fearing the love that he was willing to offer and for not trusting him.

"Aren't you supposed to be at the concert? And besides you can see his face 24/7, isn't that more than enough that you had to stare at his billboard as well?" she retorted.

"Ofcourse its not enough. It will never be enough. Looking at his face, praising his beauty, loving his heart... it will never be enough."

"What are your plans now?"

"I don't really know. To tell you the truth, dinadaga na naman ang dibdib ko (I'm getting  scared again)" she told her. "I want to doubt myself again."

"Bakit ka ba ganyan mag isip? (Why are thinking like that?)" she exclaimed. "Be proud of yourself. Look Belle, its true both of you ended hurt but whatever may have happened before I guess it was for the best. If both of you have forced it before you may end up hurting each other more. The Belle before, yes she was weak, she has more fears and inhibitions but I do believe times has changed. The separation only proved how much you really both love each other. Isn't that enough to see that your love was worth fighting for?"

"Have I really changed?"

"Only you can answer that Belle. But know that whatever may your decisions be, we will always be here for you"

"What if other eels learned about it? What if they won't like me for Oppa?"

"Ha ha ha. I can't believe your worrying about that. I am not an eel so I won't know how your kin will feel. Maybe you can answer that. But don't you think an eel loving him is much better than anybody else? You know him, his heart, his joy and happiness, his sorrows. Hypothetically, if I am an eel, I'd rather have him falling inlove with someone who would truly understand and love him."

"I can't believe I am hearing those things from you," she cant help but chuckle.

"Yeah. I can't believe it too. ha ha."

"But thank you," she said and let out a heavy sigh. "You took loads off my heart."

"You know that's one thing I really hate of you. You don't rely on others. I know your strong, you can take whatever blows thrown at you, you can even get hurt for the people you love but you know, you don't always have to carry all the heavy loads all by yourself. We, who truly love you will always be ready to carry any burden for you."