Warmth of Home | Home Series #1

Chapter 26

Chapter 26

I'm just looking at him with my teary-eyed. My heart was pounding so fast not because of love but because of pain.

Thinking about the past, on how I cried because I was missing him. Thinking about how he left me without saying anything. Thinking about my daughter, my innocent daughter who's wanting a father that I can't even give to her because he's father left me, left us. Just thinking all of those, it's hurting me. I was hurting...

"Scayans..."

A lone tear fell as I stop my sob. He is alive... He is in front of me, looking through my eyes. Softness was visible on his eyes as he stared at my whole face. I must admit, he look more manly now compared to the past.

But at these time, I can't go back and reminisce our past because I still can't believe that he is in front of me. I don't even know what to say.

Dati ay hinihiling ko na sana mahanap ko na siya, na sana makita ko na siya, kahit hindi na makasama. But now that he's here, walang lumulabas sa bibig ko kahit ni isang salita man lang. Ni hindi nga ako makatingin sakaniya nang deretso dahil natatakot ako na baka nananaginip lang ako, natatakot ako na baka hindi siya totoo. Hindi ko alam kung totoo ba siya o dala lang ito ng alak.

"I'm hallucinating... you are not true. This is just a dream.." Kumawala ako mula sa pagkakahawak niya. When I saw him on the next couch, I thought I was dreaming so I wanted to go to the restroom. Pero hindi ko na alam, hindi ko na alam kung totoo ba ito. O nananaginip lang ako. Kasi kung panaginip lang ito, huwag mo muna akong gisingin, nagmamakaawa ako...

Umatras ako ng isang hakbang atsaka pumikit at kasabay niyon ay ang pagkurot ko sa sarili. I was making sure if I am just dreaming but fuck, ako lang ang nasaktan.

"You are-"

Before I could hear what Apollo's going to say, I ran away from him and went out of the bar. Mabuti na lamang at nasa bulsa ko ang susi ng ginamit naming sasakyan kung kaya't mabilis akong nakapasok doon at pinaharurot paalis iyon.

I didn't saw Apollo at my back when I ran. He was probably lost because he didn't know that I was going to run away. And I am thankful for that because I don't want to talk to him... for now. My mind was in chaos that's why I am crying while I was driving my way home.

Mabilis naman akong nakarating sa condo at agad kong binuksan ang pinto. I saw Xienna's nanny sleeping on the couch so I woke her up and told her to go to her room and sleep there instead. She just nodded and went to her room. Good thing I retouch my face before going here so Xienna's nanny didn't notice how I've cried hard.

Uminom muna ako ng tubig bago magtungo sa kwarto namin ni Xienna. I saw her sleeping peacefully at our bed while there's a pillow around her to stop her from falling. I heaved a sigh and went to her to kiss her cheeks before going to the bathroom and took a shower.

While taking a shower, I was thinking about Apollo. I didn't expect him to see now. I thought I will never see him again but I'm wrong. I just saw him now, alive and kicking.

I finished showering and wore my silky night dress then blow-dried my hair. I went to our bed and removed the pillow and when I was done, I lay down beside Xienna who automatically hugged me. I smiled and caressed her hair before kissing it.

I closed my eyes and I thought I will stay up night because of what happened on the bar but I slept. Umaga na nang magising ako dahil may nararamdaman akong 'tila may mabigat na nakapatong saakin. Unti-unti kong binuksan ang aking mga mata at agad na bumungad saakin ang anak kong nakangiting pinagmamasdan ako habang nakapatong saakin.

"Good morning, baby..."

I kissed her forehead and she giggled.

"Good morning to you too, Mommy!"