They saw each other first on the train. And then in the same cafe, and then in the same meeting room. He disliked her loud music, she disliked his attitude. Their opinions will have to change when she's hired to work with him.
Rules will be broken...
Shawn Mendes "You know you're going to get asked about her right?" Andrew said and I sighed. "I know" "You haven't messaged her?" "No" "I thought you liked her?" He pestered. "I do. I did. I don't know" "What happened between you two?" He asked and I couldn't respond. "Ok. I'm not asking anymore. Just be ready with answers" I nodded and walked through to the Q&A room. My ears were filled with the sound of screams and I smiled to myself as I jumped up on the box. "I just want to say thank you for everyone coming out tonight you guys mean the world to me" I smiled and there was another round of shouts. I think most people's hands rose to ask a question and it was tough to pick who. I had bad anxiety. I was so worried that all of the questions were going to be about her. I wouldn't know what to say. I didn't know where she was or what she was doing. I was almost relying on hearing something about her on snapchat or celebrity news or something like that but nothing has come up. Part of me knew that I should have just messaged her and gotten over what she had told me. But I couldn't. I hadn't told anyone what happened between us and I wanted to keep it that way. It was just easier. "Ok. What's your question?" I said pointing to a younger girl towards the back "What is your dream?" She asked and I smiled as she curled back up under her father's legs. "I'm living my dream. Just to perform and meet so many amazing people on this large of a scale is my dream and I thank you all for supporting me in that" I smiled and saw the little girl smiling back and nodding.
I pointed to an older girl stood right next to me and she smiled. "So I think most of us, mainly older ones, want to know if you're single" she said and laughs sounded from around the room. "I am single yes" I replied taking a deep breath in as I could predict what was going to follow after this questions. Questions about her. My mind raced trying to prepare myself for what was about to come but all my sense of preparation and focus was floating around in my mind. "What happened with you and that girl?" I heard from someone in the room followed by a round of nods. "Me and my team, you know, tried to prepare for this and I honestly can't figure out what to tell you guys. If I tell you the truth you guys will see me as a bad person, and if I don't tell you guys the truth then I'll feel bad" I sighed. "We won't. We all love you Shawn!" The same girl yelled followed by claps. "Me and Faith, we were never official. I think if we had more time with one another I think it very well could have happened. But to be honest with you guys, I don't know where she is now or what she's doing. I haven't text her like I said I would" I explained and shrugged at the end. I looked around and saw heads nodding, some looking sad. "Message her!" Someone shouted and there was a mixed response of "yes" and "no" floating round. I started to feel vulnerable. I just didn't want to think about her anymore.
As the questions were asked I tried to avoid talking about her as much as I could. I wanted to take my phone out of my pocket and message her right there and then. I had a sinking feeling in my stomach after the Q&A and I knew I had to pick the energy up if I didn't want a stadium of disappointed fans. "What's going on?" Dad asked as we sat in the dressing room. I put my head in my hands and just wiped my hair off my forehead. "Is it about that girl?" He said and I nodded. "You know you can talk to me about it. What happened?" "A lot" I sighed. "You've got half an hour before you go on. What happened?" He repeated and I slumped back into the sofa. "I don't know how it happened. But I think we both started to like each other outside of filming. We went on a date and spent a night together and," I paused. I don't know whether to tell dad or not. I just got embarrassed at the thought of having to tell him. "And what, Shawn your 20 years old" "Yes I know. Ok we had sex and then nothing really happened after. I didn't ask her to be my girlfriend or make it special and I hate that" I sighed. "Hate what?" "She was a, you know. And I didn't make it special for her. And then after that I didn't ask her to be my girlfriend" "Shawn you don't have an obligation to be her boyfriend just because she hadn't had sex before." Dad said and I nodded. "I know but it wasn't just about that. I really did like her and I know she likes me. If we just had a bit more time to get to know each other that little bit more I would have asked her. I don't want to drag her into this life though" I groaned. "I think it's a bit too late for that. She's already all over the media Shawn. I bet you right now she's at school just being asked every question under the sun about you. And to be honest, I would think she needs you and your help and advice. She's a small town girl never brought into light like this. I know you shouldn't have to, but from what you said she seems shyer than all the others" he said and I nodded in complete understanding and realisation.
She probably did need me. And I wasn't there for her.
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