My own world (Jason McCan FanFic)

Chapter 27 'Regret'

-Regret-

Jason's POV

--4 days later--

"Jason" i heard Josh's voice, i looked at him "Max wanna see you" he said, "im so tired Josh" i said, "Jason you're the leader, and Anna. But Anna is uhm i dont know whats happening with her, do you?" He asked,

"No" i lied, he sighed "go then" he said, "anyways he wants to see you, not Anna" said Josh, alright weird why not Anna? "ask him if you can go or Troy" i said, he sighed and nodded. "I'll see what i can do" he mumbled and closed the door, my thoughts came back

I hurt Annabelle

I hurt Annabelle

I cant even imagine, her body underneath mine and she's screaming for help, the thought makes me sick

"jason, we're all leaving. Im going to Max' and the rest is going to Shawn's. Annabelle is staying here, i swear if u got drunk again i'll-" i cut Troy's off "i wont" i said, he nodded "good"

"Oh by the way, there's something called knocking" I said, he rolled his eyes and left. I sighed and kept laying there

I dont know what to do

What shall I do?

Urgh

I got up and went upstairs to Anna's room, i knocked but there was no answer, i opened the door, i saw her laying on her bed, i sat next to her, she's sleeping

I saw dry tears on her cheeks, i wiped them off,

"Im sorry" i whispered, she kept sleeping. I got up and closed the door behind me, i went downstairs and started checking some papers for bombing a building, but i just couldn't concentrate.

I threw the papers and went to the Kitchen, I saw a Vodka bottle in front of me, i took the bottle and smashed it to the wall.

I heard footsteps on the stairway, then i saw Annabelle, fuck

She looked at me and kept silent, "what was the sound?" She suddenly asked, her voice was low "uh- the vodka fell" i lied, she looked at me back to the smashed bottle probably thinking that im still drinking

I looked at Anna who was staring blankly to the bottle, i took a deep breath, "i will uhm- clean this" i mumbled as i started taking the big pieces of glass and put them away, after i cleaned everything i looked at the stairway, annabelle was still standing still looking blankly

"Anna?" I said, she looked at me suddenly, "what?" She snapped, "nothing, you just kind of zoned out" i mumbled, "anna" i said again sighing, "Mmm?"

"Im sorry" I said, she looked at me and kept silent, i took some steps towards her, she took steps hack when i reached her, "im really sorry Annabelle, i didnt know what was im doing" i said and took a step closer, she kept taking back steps until her back hit the wall. "Say something" i whispered, she was shacking

"Anna, im not going to hurt you" i said, yea my ass she will believe that, "jason, please go" she suddenly started tearing, "anna, please just lis-" she cut me off, "please, just leave me alone" tears kept rolling down her cheeks, i was going to wipe them away when she moved her head "dont, please" she whispered, then she bent down to the floor

"Anna, just-" she cut me off, "LEAVE ME FUCKING ALONE" she broke down, literally broke down. She curled up on the floor and kept sobbing, "i didnt mean to Anna" i whispered, she kept crying, best thing to do is leave

So thats what i've done, i went back to my room and laid on my bed, sandra's words replied in my head again

What were you thinking? She trusted you, fucking trusted you! You go and do that? I get it you're mad at her, but what you've done is so much worse, so much worse. How could you? Anna, she is one of the most fragile girls, she got sexually insulted way too much right now but from you? Im so disappointed