One Shots ❦ Camren + Others

#16: Never Really Over

(A/N)

No one:

Absolutely no one:

Me: Okay, since y'all asked, here it is 😌

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I'm losing my self control,
Yeah, you're starting to trickle back in,
But I don't wanna fall down the rabbit hole,
Cross my heart, I won't do it again,

I tell myself, tell myself, tell myself, "Draw the line,"
And I do, I do,
But once in a while, I trip up, and I cross the line,
And I think of you...

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Lauren's POV

What if time doesn't do what it's supposed to do?

What if I never get over you..

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Hey, it's me.

You probably don't want to hear from me, but this is the last time. Promise. Just hear me out, okay? You and me, one last time down memory lane.

I'm sorry how everything turned out.

How we can't even keep a simple text conversation past 'how are you' and 'good'. How everything seems to be tainted by some ulterior motive and everything seems to lead back to the heartbreak that we once had to endure.

Call me stupid, but I don't regret any time I had spent with you, and I hope you don't regret it either. Despite how everything turned out.

I hope you know that even though we can't look at each other, I'm still here for you.

If you call, I'll be at the other end of the phone. No ulterior motives, just me caring about you. I know that I'm the last person you'll ever want to talk to, but I hope even just for a split second, you think about me too.

I want to tell you that I miss you, with absolutely no subtext.

No guilt.

No anger.

No expectation, that you will fix it.

I don't want you to feel bad or to tell me that it gets better. I know it gets better, but right now, I just miss you.

This is where we're supposed to be right now. You apart from me. My heart just a little sad, and my soul a tad bit too empty.

I just miss you.

I wanted you to know.

She always told me that she gave more in relationships, and that she had been hurt one too many times that it left a hole in her heart.

A hole I tried to fill.

But I learnt that its utterly impossible to fill the void in someone else's heart. They need to heal on their own.

On more than one occasion, she would cry in my arms about the pain that was inflicted upon her by ex lovers.

She would apologise to me, because she had a fear of falling in love and not being loved back.