sirens•jaynnie

Chapter 8

-Katie's POV-
Me- B stfu you are so loud

Brennan- you should be asleep young lady

Me- yeah I should

Me- so sneak out quieter🙄

Brennan- don't tell mom

Me- we'll see

      I lay back down and close my eyes in an attempt to fall back asleep when I see the light from my phone screen flash onto the ceiling. I turn over, half-expecting it to be my brother trying to bribe me not to tell my parents.

A/N: this is the same convo from the last chapter so you can skip ahead lmao

Annie💕💕- we need to meet up

Annie💕💕- even though there's no chance in hell you're awake

Me- actually I am

Annie💕💕- why

Me- Brennan just snuck out. He's not very good at it. Kinda loud

Annie💕💕- well let's hope you're not loud

Me- well no I'm not loud when I'm just laying in bed and NOT sneaking out

Annie💕💕- please

Me- what's wrong

Annie💕💕- Caleb

Me- where we going

Annie💕💕- meet me @ the park. Leaving now

Me- be right there

      I meet her there and we sit down.

      "I don't want to be here for long. We're not supposed to be here after dark." I say, doing my best not to sound like I don't care about what may be wrong.

      "Relax. It's not like we're gonna get arrested."

A/N: that really sounds like foreshadowing but like they literally don't get arrested lmao

      "So what went down?"

      "We were at dinner and I looked over at the TV stand and Hayley's picture was just..right there. And Caleb's wasn't."

      "That's insane."

      "So then I said something about it and my mom was acting completely normal with her answer. Like, that's her son. She should care, too. Then I pointed out that it was awful, and then I used some colorful language, and then she yelled at me, then I almost cut myself, the end."

"Annie, are you serious?" She rolls her eyes.

"I said almost. Relax. We both know I'll never man up enough to do it."

"And I hope you never do. I told you to get rid of that thing." I feel a chill just thinking about my best friend actually wanting to do that to herself.

"It makes me feel strong to have it."

"Annie, the fact that you haven't done something like after everything makes you so strong."

"Yeah, yeah. I'm so unlucky and sad and I deserve all the pity in the world but I'm great for living through all of it." Annie mocks.

"You should get home. You're probably tired. You mortals and your sleep." She sighs. I chuckle.

"Please promise me you're never going to do it." I stand up.

"Sure."

"Say it."

"Katie, I promise I will never cut myself."

"Or any other self harm." I say seriously.

"Or any other self harm" she repeats.

"I love you, now go to sleep." I say before we go our separate ways.

I could never imagine being in such a dark place. I haven't experienced the same things as her, though. When Caleb died, it hit her whole family and everyone close to her, including me, very hard. We were all crying for a good two weeks straight at least. Even though Brennan is a brat, he's my big brother and I know it would hurt so much to lose him. Ryan, too.

The reason I always push Annie to make new friends is because I want her to have a nice group of people who will be there to make her happy. I try my best on my own, but she's still so against it.

If something ever happens to her, something..self induced, I wouldn't be able to forgive myself. I know I'm not her bodyguard and that I'm not responsible for her, but I just try to keep a steady eye out.

I quietly open my back door and tip-toe up the stairs before getting into bed at around 4:30. We could have just texted eachother, but sometimes when things like this happen I've noticed that Annie likes to get out of the house for a little while. Even at such an early hour.

I plug my phone back in and pull up my comforter before drifting off to sleep.

A/N
I hate myself this chapter is so boring😔
STAN CROWN LAKE goodnight
June 20th-21st, 2019