-Jayden's POV-
All my friends are busy, so I'm all alone on a Friday night. Actually, it's my doing, so it's okay.
-fLaShBaCk To ThAt DaY aT sChOoL-
"Y'all are coming over tonight, right?" Lauren asks as she sits down at our lunch table.
"Totally" Jenna says enthusiastically. Sky and Kenzie both say "yeah" and everyone else nods except for me.
"What about you, Jay?" She asks and everyone turns to me.
"How big is this party?"
"Like all the others. A decent amount of people will be there but it'll be low key." She smiles.
"Not with your brother and his friends there." I point out.
"You got me there. We're gonna have safe fun though! Nothing bad's going to happen."
"Isn't Armani going? I don't know if I feel like seeing him outside of school yet."
"Yeah, I actually do think so. I can kick him out. I'll feel kind of bad, but I'll do it for you if it makes you feel more comfortable." She offers.
"It's fine. I think my mom wants to hang out with me tonight." She works a lot, so we don't see each other every night.
"Okay, If you're sure. We're gonna miss you. Come anyway if you change your mind."
-eNd Of FlAsHbAcK-
My mom really does work a lot. Including tonight.
Which means I lied. The Armani thing was kind of true, but honestly I just felt like staying home.
I don't feel like partying, even if we're just hanging out. I guess I feel bad for lying to my best friends, but sometimes I need a break from them.
I feel like if people knew that I was questioning my sexuality they would just think that I wanted attention, and they wouldn't understand. Even though they're all so nice, I'm not sure if they all will accept me if these feelings end up meaning something. I wish I could just figure it out and be done, but I know it's not realistic to know over night.
I decide to talk to Annie. She really does seem cool and I do want to be her friend. Plus, she's dealt with this.
Me- soooo what do you like to do
Annie- well I don't have a social life so I just hang out with Katie and when I'm not doing that I'm usually sitting in my room thinking about how terrible my life is
Annie- how about you
Me- oh um
Me- I hang out with my friends on most weekends and I take singing lessons on wednesdays after school. but I only sing there and at home by myself
Annie- well why take lessons if you only sing for yourself
Me- idk. I feel like my friends would be overenthusiastic about it. thats not necessarily a bad thing but sometimes I don't feel like being supported. That sounds weird lol
Annie- I get it. i guess it's like how I don't like when my mom looks at me with pity in her eyes when someone mentions Caleb. she means well but it's kind of annoying
Me- i assume that's your brother
Annie- yeah
Me- im sorry
Annie- it's fine. I'm not over it but I understand that he's gone. It's kind of nice to talk about him. I like to keep him in my memory
Me- then do you wanna talk about him
Annie- I guess. Haven't given anyone the full story in a while.
Annie- He died in 2015 when he was only 13. It was all a blur in the moment because I didn't really understand what was going on. I'm sure my sister understood even less, since she's even younger. Anyways he died of heart complications from a condition that we didn't know about
Me- that sounds awful.
Annie- it was. He was the coolest. My role model. His smile lit up a room
Me- he sounds great. He was so young.
Annie- yeah. Way too young for that to happen. He didn't deserve it.
Annie- but tell me more about you
Me- okay, if you want.
Me- I have two brothers who I don't see very much and no pets, so my life is pretty basic. You've seen my friends, Lauren, Jenna, Kenzie, Sky, Brisa, Sophia... sometimes we hang with the boys but we still aren't the closest, as you saw in history the other day lol
Annie- I gtg I'm literally falling asleep every two seconds
Me- lol bye
A/N
I got forty minutes of sleep I'm crackheading goodnight-
Broooo I just wanna know anything about Jayden's brothers like they are literally a mystery to the entire internet
June 27th-28th, 2019
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