Hopefully Meron (GxG)

Chapter 30

Stella's POV

Tawanan naman sila,

"So about nga dun sa naging girlfriend mo dati. You said she was your senior and teammates kayo sa soccer. I don't know if you actually like her or you're just experimenting." Tuloy ni Doreen.

"Probably experimenting ate Reen, I mean kahit ano pang sabihing dahilan ng mundo to approve the idea of homosexuality or whatsoever, I strongly believe that it's wrong. Kahit sang anggulo tingnan eh. Ang lalaki ay para sa babae lamang and vice versa." Paliwanag ni Julia.

And naramdaman kong parang binuhusan ako ng malamig na tubig.

"Pero kahit kailan hindi naman naging mali ang magmahal diba?." I blurted which caught everyone's attention.

"Love has its own rules Stella, of course there are people that we shouldn't be involved with romantically. Meaning may mga taong hindi pwedeng mahalin, for example is taong may asawa, kamag-anak, hindi kapananampalataya at isa na dun sa forbidden list na yun ay ang kapwa kasarian. Isipin mo nga, sex is about producing babies and not for people's sick pleasures. And people should understand that marriage is a sacred thing exclusive for men and women, it is a privilege. Not a right." Dahil dun natahimik nalang ako. Ayokong isipin nyang kinakalaban ko sya. May point naman sya eh.

I just can't believe na ang babaeng nagsabing ipaglalaban ako ay kinakalaban na ako ngayon at sinasabing maling minahal ko sya.

And everyone seemed convinced kaya napaisip ako,

"How do you explain hormones and genes?. That sometimes you're just born that way?." Sabi ko.

"Females and males in general should have the exact same amount of their own hormones, kaya if you're a girl who had an overlapping male hormones and gets attracted to same sex, don't just say you can't help it. Of course you can do something about it."

"So you're saying that homosexuality can be cured? That it's some kind of disease--"

"I didn't say that, what I meant is homosexuality might be a result of overlapping of certain characteristics exclusive to men or women. You know, even if you're in the opposite sex, it's also considered sinful to think sexual towards the other sex especially if that person is not or not yet your wife or husband."

Surprisingly, she had a lot to say about this.

"So pano if--malaman mong for example, you're in love with me. What would you do?." I blurted.

"Nothing. I mean, I know that the devil always offers us attractive things kaya tayo nahuhulog sa kasalanan. Not all good things in our senses are good for us Stella. So, I'm sorry--US is never gonna happen."

"So, you won't let US happy because of that belief?. Ayaw mo bang sumaya?."

"Teka lang girls ah, pwede ba wag kayong magdedebate dito?. Stella, ano ba?. Pumunta tayo dito para kamustahin si Julia at hindi mag-iskandalo."

"It's okay Ate Doreen. I was kinda enjoying this actually." Julia said staring and smiling at me. And it was a genuine smile that I missed so much.

"You know Stella, when you grew older--you basically understand that the most important thing in life isn't about being happy. It's about having a meaningful life. Let's just say that I do love you, but Stella--I love God more. And chosing him than my own shallow happiness is the best choice of all."

Grabe, ansaket saket na. Di ko na'to kaya. Pano ko naman ipapaalala sa kanya how she used to love me if ganito na sya ngayon?.

"..pero don't think it bad ah, I'm not a Homophobic person. I have lots of gay and bisexual friends. And I respect them and their choice to be happy, it's just that kahit never ko naman so far naisip to be with a girl, hindi ko naman gagawin yun. We have this doctrine that we strongly held on. So, respect nalang for our belief." Mapagkumbaba nyang paliwanag.