Hopefully Meron (GxG)

Chapter 38

Julia's POV

FLASHBACK

While we're watching a movie. Naisip kong tanungin si Gino.

"Do you think it's really possible that I was inlove with a girl and that I could fall for another one, one of these days?."

"Are you still bothered about that Stella girl?. That most of your friends said that you were in love with her?."

"Well, you can't blame me Gino. I'm just trust trying my best to understand these sorts of things."

"I mean she's pretty, kitang kita ko yun kanina. And I know she had a good character, siguro yun yung nagustuhan mo dati sa kanya kaya di malayong mahulog ka ulit dun."

"But Gino, I'm not gay."

"You don't have to be gay to fall in love with a girl Julia, love is love. Fvck and forget those labels. Just let yourself be happy with someone that your heart wants."

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And looking at her now, no no no. Hindi pwede. Napailing nalang ako, hindi ako makapag focus sa sumasayaw. Then all of a sudden, I saw her offering her hand for me to hold it. Like really, she did that in front of her mom and Tita Celine isn't even bothered about it.

Kinakabahan akong hinawakan ang kamay nya and I'm surprised to see how it fits perfectly.

Natawa sya ng bahagya.

"Sobrang lamig ng kamay mo." Sabi pa nya sakin, I don't know but I can't stop myself staring at those soft looking pink lips she had. Imagining how they felt--no, stop it Julia--masama yang iniisip mo. Magagalit ang Diyos sayo.

God forgive me for I have a sinful and lustful soul, may you cleanse it for I am willing to give up this unacceptable feeling to inherit your kingdom.

I then looked away. Scared. Really really scared that I actually imagine myself pulled by the demons towards the door of hell. I felt so bad feeling like this. I'm guilty.

But her hand. It's so warm. It feels so right that I can't even think of letting it go. Kaya imbes na mag-isip pa ng kung ano ano, pinilit ko nalang ang sarili ko na manood sa mga sumasayaw.

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom
Let it be

At umabot na nga ang time na sasayaw na ang ate nya, a lot of people are cheering lalo na tong mga katabi ko but all of a sudden, everything went in to slow motion.

And the way she smile and look at me like that. How our eyes met synchronized with my rapidly beating heart.

And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom
Let it be

I never thought of feeling as magical as this. Her face, those lips. It's perfect. She looked away still cheering for her sister.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

I think the lights and music were all manipulating the way I feel right now. It's the first time na nakaramdam ako as if everything in that exact moment is right.

And when the broken-hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer
Let it be

FLASHBACK

"Stella--she loves you so much. I was wrong when I said that she didn't deserve to be loved by you. I saw how she tried, I saw how she wanted so bad to have you back. And I wouldn't stand in the way like I did before. I want you to be happy. I want your heart to find its way back home and it is with Stella." Huling sabi ni Vish sakin as she pulled me closer for a very tight hug as if she's saying goodbye.