My Girl

37

*Callie*

one week later

I haven't heard from Arizona in 3 days. I haven't even bothered to call her yet because wherever she is, I'm sure she's fine.

Deep, deep, down, I was worried about her because maybe she got kidnapped or attacked. Maybe this is her way of breaking up with me.

This was very much like Arizona, running away from her problems. I would want to talk it out with her but she never wants to hold a conversation without somehow transforming it into an argument.

My right leg is in a boot and I've been able to get around more on crutches. We just moved at home yesterday and so far everything looks amazing.

I heard the door open but I'm guessing it was Mark coming back in from dropping the kids off at school. Mark and Abi are now at home with me.

For some reason Abi was gathering all of her stuff.

"What are you doing?" I asked finally breaking the silence.

"I'm packing my stuff, keep exercising that leg." She didn't even turn around to look at me.

I just brushed it off and continued to do as she said.

"ABI!" Mark yells from downstairs.

"What?" Something was obviously wrong with her.

He came up the stairs and gave her a tight and long hug.

"Ok, what is going on?" I asked out of frustration.

"Callie I have to leave, they need me back in San Francisco and you can walk fine with crutches and you have this whole space and you have Mark and Arizona, you'll be fine without me." Her voice cracked at the end.

It felt like I was being shot, right in the heart. She came back for me and now she's leaving me. We spent all of our time together for a good two weeks and I told her everything and this is how she returns the favor. She's going back to San Francisco. I didn't even know that she came here from San Francisco.

Mark left the room and closed the door behind him but I was still left speechless. Abi pulled a stool over and sat in front of me.

"Why are you leaving me." I whispered. I couldn't look at her. It would just hurt me more.

This was high school all over again and I knew my heart was speaking more than my mind.

"We can't do this, us, we can't work. I am constantly moving and I can't put my job at risk for you even though I really want to." She grabs my hands in hers. They freezing cold, was she anemic or something?

That was how she felt? I felt like I was in high school again and my emotions and hormones were all over the place.

"You need to go and chase your dream." I state. "I care about you too much to let you drop everything you love for me, I'm not that special and as you can see, I'm a handful to take care of."

We both started laughing at my comment but her smile faded before mine.

"You are incredible Callie, you are extraordinarily beautiful and I want to chase my dream and if I drop everything that I love, then I have to drop you." She took a deep breath in. "I love you Callie, I always have."

No. This couldn't be possible. I wanted to scream and tell her to get off of me but I just couldn't. I know that I don't love her but she doesn't know that. She was intoxicating.

"I think you need to get your stuff." I say trying not to sound panicked. I needed to stop myself before I do or say something that I will regret. I can't mess this up now.

"That's it? I confess my love for you and all you can say is that I need to pack my stuff?" She got up and paced in circles for a few minutes before I stood up and stopped her.

"Abi! Snap out of it! I can't be the person you want me to be right now." I put my hands on her shoulders. "What did you expect me to say or do!"

She raised her eyebrow and smirked. For the first time I felt something by looking at her, and it was a feeling that I've never gotten from her. I felt fear starting in my stomach.

She grabs my face with both of her hands and our lips roughly meet.

"Just let go." She whispers in my ear.

"Just let go."

"Just let go."

I gave in, and before I knew it I was being pressed again the wall with Abi's lips roaming my neck. Her icy cold hands were up my shirt and I was extremely uncomfortable but I couldn't stop. It felt like I was in a coma again. I couldn't move or speak.

Then right before she took off my shirt, there was a knock on the door.

WHAT HAVE I DONE?

Abi got off of me and fixed herself and I could finally breathe again.

"Abi, your uber is here to take you to the hospital." Mark calls out.

"Ok, give me one second." She replies.

She looked at me, with so many emotions but none of them showed regret. I wanted to slap her. Slap her for leading me on and trapping me in a hole just for her to fill that hole with dirt and never come back to it again.

"I wish you nothing but the best on your road to recovery." She whispers and is out the door.

I walk to the edge of the stairs and watched her as she hugged Mark and walked out the door and out of my life. She broke me and I was left to pick up the pieces because I had shut everybody else down.

"Mark, I did something really bad." I say from the top of the stairs causing him to turn around.

He eyeballs me and then follows me upstairs into the training room.

"I messed up, really bad, I did something unforgivable." I broke down and he ran over to hug me.

"When you're ready to talk I'll listen." He rubs the back of my head in comfort.

I didn't deserve Mark, I've treated him terribly and he still cares for me.

I gathered myself and sat up in front of him. He quickly scanned me to check if I was hurt. His eyes squinted and we leaned towards my neck.

"Tell me you didn't." His tone was strict and it made me want to cry even more. I've always been sensitive and secretly hating when people yelled at me.

"She came on to me I promise, I felt trapped, like I couldn't breathe." I couldn't stop the tears from falling.

He just hugged me and told me everything would be alright. "You have to tell Robbins though, she deserves to know."

Arizona. How could I do that to her.

a/n
Ahhh please don't hate me for this, it gets better soon I promise. Consider this a bump in the road to a happy ending :)