My Girl

45

*Callie*

Something was clearly bothering Arizona and I needed to find out what it was.

"I'm gonna go take a shower and change and I should be back when the brownies are ready." Riley says.

"I'll join." Zahra smirks.

"Gross, get a room!" I say as they get up. They were leaving us alone. Again.

Her hands were slightly shaking while she was adding the ingredients.

"Arizona please talk to me."

"Callie, I've been through so much trauma and pain in my life and right now I need to make sure that this is what I want."

So she was second guessing our entire relationship.

"We have a family together, we go to work together, we love each other and yes I made a huge mistake but this is what I want. I want to continue my life with you until the day I die."

"These aren't our wedding vows Callie." I couldn't read her tone. It was completely flat.

"When I look at you I'm home. Nothing else in this world matters when I'm with you Arizona. I'll wait for you, I'll wait as long as it takes." I felt a single tear rolling down my eye.

This isn't the end.

"If I walked out of that door I would be leaving behind everything." She was now putting the brownies into the pan. "But I would be so free yet so extremely hurt."

"Then don't walk away, it's simple." I immediately regretted that.

"Actually Callie it's not simple. You put everything on the line as soon as your lips touched hers. You were in your right mind when you decided to kiss her. If it wasn't for Mark who knows what would've gone on. You put me through all of this pain again and right now I'm deciding if I want to walk away for my happiness and my mental health. I don't want to live the rest of my life wondering if maybe, just maybe if I stayed things could've been different. So no, it's not simple." She raised her voice.

"I'm sorry, I know it's not easy or simple. Please just think about it."

I'm going to propose. Not now, but at some point. Valentine's Day is only about 2 weeks away and it was perfect. I think we're leaving tomorrow so that gives me enough time to buy the ring and set everything up.

Riley and Zahra came back downstairs giggling.

"I have something you all might want to see." Zahra reaches into a closet and pulls out an old scrapbook.

We all gathered around the table and laughed. There was a little boy in the picture who I'm guessing was Tim but Arizona and Zahra didn't address it.

"I remember one day when we were 3, Arizona fell headfirst down those stairs." Riley points to a medium sized set of stairs.

"She turned out perfect." I smiled at Arizona and she just completely ignores my comment.

We went through the rest of the album and soon enough the brownies were ready.

Everyone made their own plates adding different flavors of ice cream to their brownies. It felt like we were teenagers having one big sleepover in the woods.

Arizona didn't eat much so she finished first. "I'm going to go shower and then probably go to bed so goodnight everyone."

"Good night." Zahra says with a mouthful off food.

"Night." Riley says.

They both look at me but Arizona was already upstairs.

"Don't give up Callie, she's just not ready yet." Riley says.

"I know." I put up my plate and started washing it.

I've been trying to see things from Arizona's point of view.

She's been hurt so many times and all I did was add frosting to the cake.

I want to be with Arizona forever and to do that I have to give her all the time she needs. When she's ready to talk, she'll talk.

But I can't let her run away from her feelings.

"Callie you've been scrubbing the same plate for 8 minutes." Zahra says.

I put it down and looked at her.

"Is it over?"

"No, she just needs time and you need patience."

With that I almost ran upstairs just to see that Arizona was still in the shower.

I laid down on the bed and stared at the ceiling.

After what felt like forever, Arizona came out.

"Oh, I didn't hear you come in, sorry." She says in a panicky tone.

"You can um change in here." I absolutely hated the fact that she felt like she couldn't change in front of me.

"Oh, ok."

I wanted to respect her privacy so I didn't look at her no matter how bad I wanted to. She's beautiful on the inside and outside.

"I'm ready to talk now." I feel a slight dip in the bed so I sit up and face her. She looks breathtaking.

"I don't want this to be how things end Arizona, we have 2 kids at home and we have a life together, when I think of the future I see you right by my side. Please don't walk away." I confess.

"I don't want to get hurt again, I can't afford to get hurt again."

"I will never, ever hurt you again."

"You promise?"

"I promise." I wanted to hug her and shower her in kisses right now but we are supposed to be taking things slow.

After a long pause, Arizona pulls me into a tight hug.

"I forgive you Calliope."

I was so happy that I felt tears falling. My life is slowly coming back together.

"Thank you for forgiving me."

Then I felt her roll over on top of me and started kissing me.

"What are you doing?" I stopped to kiss.

"Is this not what you want?"

"No, it is."

"Then stop talking." Her tone was almost demanding.

(I think you can let your mind wonder to what happens now ;)