My Girl

40

*Arizona*

I felt bad, I didn't mean what I said to Callie but in a way I did. Callie is my best friend but now I have no idea who she is.

The comment that Mark made made me even more mad. After everything that just happened I would kill her if she actually considered doing that with Mark. A man. I get she's bisexual but we aren't broken up, this is me taking time to heal.

"The girls are asleep, I can take them into their room." Mark whispers.

"I'll get Sofia." Callie says.

"I'll get going then." I add on.

"No." Mark and Callie both say in unison.

Why did they want me to stay. I don't serve any real value here anyways.

"Once you're done, can we talk Callie?" I look up at her. Those beautiful brown eyes.

She nods and they put the girls to sleep.

I pulled out my phone and shot Carina a quick text.

Me: I think I'm gonna stay over here tonight, don't wait for me.

Carina: Know where you stand in her life Zona

Me: I will, have a nice night with Ashley

Carina: Oh I will ;)

I smiled at her response, always knew how to put a smile on my face. Now it was time to face Callie.

She sat down in front of me, she was looking at me but I was looking right above her head.

"First thing is first, you and I are still together which means you can't go and sleep with Mark, if you do I will kill the both of you." I started off.

"Ok."

"I have one main question." I lowered my tone a little.

"What is it?" Her voice was low.

"Was it the same Abigail from high school? The same Abigail who tore your family apart? The same Abigail who ruined your life?" I could feel the tears coming down.

"She didn't ruin my life because my life was just sitting here in the living room." She spits out in a more bitter tone.

"So now you're taking her side?" My voice raised on its own.

"No I'm just saying she didn't ruin my life because of her I probably would've never met you."

"So it was that Abigail." Everything made since now.

"Yes." Her voice was barely above a whisper.

"Were you actually considering sleeping with Mark?"

"No, of course not." She was very quick to reply to that one.

"I just feel like if your high school crush can come and sweep you off your feet, can't Erica Hahn, Mark, or even George if he was still here?"

People talk, I listen.

"You're the only one I want Arizona."

"Well you have a funny way of showing it." I got up from the couch and she grabs my hand. I didn't pull away because of the softness of her hands.

"I'm sorry." She holds our hands up to her heart, I love when she does that.

I needed more time this was moving too fast.

I left go and walked to the guest room.

the next morning

10:34. Nobody seemed to be awake. It was a Sunday and we all didn't go to sleep last night until around 10 so I wouldn't be surprised if nobody was up.

I did a lot of thinking when I took my getaway to my parents lake house. I thought about all the ways I could forgive Callie. I wanted this to all be a bad dream.

She really did make me feel special and I wanted us to get through this more than anything. I love her. I love her dangerously and sometimes it scares me. I would do anything for her, I would die for her really.

But she hurt me. She did something that she can't take back.

I had my suspicions about Abigail all along and they turned out to be true. I have no clue what actually went down in that room and I honestly don't want to know.

The thought of another person's hands on my Calliope makes me sick. She was my love, my Calliope, my soulmate, and my best friend. We have a future together that I've planned out in my head many times.

Callie knows I love her, right? She knows that I am always going to be there for her but now is not the time. I needed to find myself before I take out my anger on another person.

I rolled out of bed and found myself going upstairs into that room. To my surprise, I found Callie in there.

She couldn't see me but I could see her.

She looks gorgeous.

Maybe she was thinking about when it happened. I was here because I wanted to try to process what really happened. How could she voluntarily do that to me? She really loved me right?

I walked into the room, careful of the creaks in the floor, and wrapped my arms around Callie. She didn't even stiffen up. She knew exactly who I was.

We didn't speak, the silence did enough talking.

"I love you Calliope." I whisper.

"I love you too Arizona, are you ready?"

"One more day is all I need, I'll be ready to talk tonight I promise." I needed to reassure to Callie that I wasn't leaving for good.

"Take all the time you need."

That was different.

"Let's take a couple days off and go to my parents lake house, some adjustments can be made due to your boot but we'll be able to figure it out."

"Let's go right now." Callie suggests.

"What?"

"You heard me, let's go pack some clothes for a couple days and leave right now, how far is it?"

"About 45 minutes, Callie are you sure?" I didn't want her to get hurt or overwork herself.

"Yes, now come on and pack because we still have the whole day ahead of us." She grabs my hand and goes down the steps carefully.

There's ramps at the house and all but Callie would have to be extremely careful, can she even swim with that?

I wrote a quick letter and set it on the table. Time to start packing.

a/n

i have not updated in weeks i'm sorryyy. but my first week of school is done and about 175 more days to go :)
i have at least 5 chapters saved so we should be good for awhile.