The Middle - Volume Two ✔️

Chapter 28

Jamie

The second I get home, I head straight for the staircase. I need to get to my room to take a look at my pills. They come in strips, with a month's supply indicating the day of the week. They couldn't make it easier for you to remember exactly when you need to take a pill. So why the fuck have I been so careless with it!?

I didn't buy a pregnancy test from the pharmacy, I didn't even buy any pain killers for my headache, I just ran the fuck out of there. I was too freaked out, and I needed to get home to check my pills, and take a look at my wall calendar. I've had sex a lot since I did it with Noah. But I've only done it with Noah the one time. I've done it with Shaun so much more. And this thought fills me with even more dread than the prospect of being pregnant. If I am knocked up, there are two potential father's. This is a fucking disaster! I can't be pregnant right now, I just can't!

"Jame?" My bedroom door creaks open, and Joel fills my doorway. Christ, I didn't even hear him come in. "Me and Patrick have been over here jamming for the past hour - didn't you hear us just now when you came in?"

No, Joel, I didn't hear your guitar or Patrick's drums, because I'm too busy having an emotional meltdown over the fact that I might be carrying either Noah or Shaun's baby!

"Um, no." I say, looking up from my calendar.

"Okay, well, I wanna talk to you guys about something. Jay's on his way over here. What are you doing anyway?"

I look down at the calendar in my hand. "Just checking some dates." Awesome, and completely true.

"Okay, well, come down when you're done, yeah?" He smiles at me. He seems really happy. Good for him. "I'm ready to tell you guys about the girl I've been seeing."

Normally, I would rush down the stairs in excitement and demand answers impatiently. But, tonight is different.

"I'll be down when Jay gets here." I reply, deadpan.

"Um, okay." He frowns. Obviously he thought I'd be more excited about this, and I am. I'm just freaking the fuck out over here.

He leaves my room, and I take a deep breath, composing myself. I'm none the fucking wiser about these dates, or about the pills I may or may not have taken, or about when my last period was. I'm a fucking idiot, and I really hate myself right now. The only way I'm gonna be able to put my mind at ease is by taking a pregnancy test.

This is something I have never even considered doing. Sure, I wanna have kids. But now? No fucking way. I've never given kids so much as a single thought before. I wanna build a career first, with the band. And obviously, I wanna fall in love first too. Babies would come into my life further down the line. Much, much, fucking further.

I can't overthink this, though. What I will or won't do if I am pregnant doesn't matter, all that matters is taking a damn test and finding out for sure. That's my main priority. I should have just fucking bought one when I was at the pharmacy. I'm gonna have to go back there now, and be judged by some other old lady in the store. Fuck!

I put my calendar down and hide my pills away in the drawer of my nightstand. I get to my feet, and prepare to go and act all stoked about Joel's mystery girl. It must be serious now that he's finally decided to tell us about her. Just finding it very fucking hard to care in this moment.

The second I step into my kitchen, Jay walks in. Perfect timing. Let's get this over with so that I can slip out to the pharmacy.

"You're here, awesome." Joel says, as he walks into the kitchen from the door leading down the stairs to my garage, closely followed by Patrick. "Sit down, because this is gonna come as a shock."