The Middle - Volume Two ✔️

Chapter 54

Jamie

First final exam, done. I gotta admit, it was a chore. English Literature was never my favourite class anyway, but I think I did okay. Definitely enough to scrape a pass, at least. The exam itself wasn't the worst part though. No, the worst part was when Professor Griffin swanned in at the end of the exam, walked right up to me and Noah as we stood up from our desks to collect our bags and books, and asked us if we've managed to sort out our differences. That was the first time I'd seen the Professor since my little outburst in his class the day of the car accident. I was embarrassed when he approached us, but Noah handled it pretty well. He told the Professor that we did sort out our differences, and he even said that we're good friends now. That's right. Good friends. I didn't question it. I assume Noah just said that to satisfy Professor Griffin, and it worked. He said it was good to see us getting along so well, and then he left us alone. But... I don't know. Good friends?

I mean, do I need to ask him exactly what's going on between us? I don't want to. Because I don't wanna freak him out and shatter how good things have been between us since the Snow Ball. We get along great, he makes me laugh, he's one of the hottest boys I have ever laid eyes on, and the sex is awesome. But there's something missing. I put a pin in it, but I don't know how long I'm gonna be able to ignore the thing with the pin in it. I just don't wanna scare him off, not this soon. It is bugging me though. I'd like to grab him by the shoulders and shake him and say what the hell are we!?  but I can't do that. So, what the fuck do I do?

"Hey, California. Your hotter-than-you friend around?" I collapse down on to my bed, phone in hand, preparing myself for an in depth FaceTime with Erin. And hopefully Sarah. 

"She's talking to your hotter-than-you friend." Erin says, rolling her eyes playfully before turning her head and calling over her shoulder, "Hey, Robinson! J2 wants to talk to you! Tell J3 to fuck off! You're gonna see him next week!"

She turns back to face her phone screen. "Seriously, I don't think the honeymoon phase is ever gonna wear off with those two. Maybe the long-distance thing actually does work after all." 

I cock my head at her and purse my lips. I am not responding to that. She frowns, realising what she just said. 

"How is he, anyway? We haven't really talked since you got out of the hospital." She's talking about Jay of course.

"He's okay." I answer. "Been better, but, what did you expect after letting him in then pushing him away?"

"Jamie!" She yells down the phone at me, unimpressed. Don't care, she deserves my harsh words.

"You should never have slept with him, Er. Not if you were gonna cut him off after. And you know it." I say casually, just as Sarah appears next to Erin. 

"Hey, Jamie." She greets me happily, as Erin glares down the phone at me. "How's things with Noah?"

"That's what I wanted to talk to you about, actually." 

Erin sighs dramatically before handing her phone to Sarah, standing up from her bed and walking off screen in a huff. Such a baby. But I don't care. What she's done to Jay sucks, and I'm not gonna pretend otherwise for her sake.

"Things have been good. But, there's just something..." I start. Sarah listens intently. "I don't really know what's going on between us exactly. And that's okay, I guess. I just kinda wanna know... But I'm scared to ask him."

"Totally, I get that." Sarah says automatically. "You don't wanna start throwing around words like boyfriend or relationship with him too soon. It'll freak him out."

"Exactly!" I say, "and that's okay, you know. These things take time, I'm not expecting the world from him right now. I kinda just want some sort of assurance, I guess."