SLS#7# The Irresistible Aviatrix

Hardest Thing

Ian's POV

" Everything will be fine, Ian. Stop worrying. Please, sit down there." Vivan said as he tried to make me feel comfortable but unfortunately it didn't work at all.

I am never ever going to forgive my aunt if anything happens to my kids. Currently both are in incubator. And my heart is beating faster every time I think about my wife. She too is not doing well. Like I am in some weird game betting on my own life. My wife and kids are in such a condition that they can leave me any time. I am just not able to hold on myself anymore. This tension is eating me alive like there is no way to get out of it. I don't know how to react now. Everything is getting weird and weird.

And all these happened for Mrs. Woods. I am not going to forgive her ever for this. Never ever.

" Ian!!" I found aunt Debbie. I didn't say anything. Just sighed deeply.

" Ian, please hold on yourself. If you act like this then who will hold on them." She said.

" I don't know if they will come back to me. I don't know it surely." I said to her. She sighed deeply.

" You will fall ill if you keep acting like this. You should relax a bit. Doctors are trying their best." She said.

" They are trying but there is no improvement at all. They are not in a better condition then before." I said.

" That's because the babies are premature. They will be fine. Stop worrying." She said.

" They have to. I am not going to forgive anyone if something happens to them." I said.

" Ian, stop saying that. Keep faith in God. Everything will be fine." Sanam said and I sighed looking at Divya's mom.

The lady has proven since last week that she is the strongest woman in this whole world. She didn't cry at all just kept praying for her child where Divya's father is not in a good state. He couldn't hold on that stress. I am just holding on myself because of them. Otherwise I would be broken down already.

" What is my fault? Why is God testing me like this?" I asked her. She shook her head.

" God keeps testing them whom he loves the most. You are so dear to him, Ian. Don't take it in a wrong way." Sanam said and I chuckled.

" I don't want to be dear to him. I want my family back. I don't care if I am in the list of worst then." I said..

" Just relax. Everything will be fine." She said. I sighed and leaned back closing my eyes.

" Where are the kids?" I asked her.

" They are at home with Olivia and Marie." She said.

" You should go home. Darsh must needs him mother." Aunt Debbie said.

" No worries. Olivia will handle him." She said.

" Ian!!" Diya called me and I turned to see her looking at me in horror.

" What happened?" I asked her.

" Come with me." She said.

" Why?" I asked her.

" Just come." She said and hold my hand dragging me to go with her. I wasn't understanding why was she acting weird suddenly.

" What happened?" Vivan asked her.

" Anna, doctor is calling him." She said.

" Sanam, you go to Amma and Appa. We will just come." He said.

" Anna, you too go with her. I know that lady will come again to create a drama." Diya said and Vivan nodded. He went back to everyone with Sanam. 

We reached the doctor's cabin and found Atharv and Aarushi standing there with drained out faces.

" What happened to you both?" I asked them.

" Bhai, that doctor-" Aarushi was stuttering to say that.

" Say that clearly." I said to her and Atharv shook his head telling her not to say anything. But her puffy eyes were saying something bad has already happened. I sighed deeply.

" Are the kids ok?" I asked them and 3 of them looked at me completely shocked. I knew the babies are not well. May be they have passed away already. " Which one? Both?" I asked them in a very normal tone. They looked at each other and looked down hiding their teary eyes. " I asked which one? Or both of them?" I asked them.

" Bhai, Keiran." Atharv said.

That's mean the baby boy has passed away. I controlled myself hard not to break down in front of them. But the feeling inside me can only be felt by someone who has lost their baby. I can't express it. I sighed and tried to control myself.

" When?" I asked them clearing my throat to gulp down my tears. But it was hard.

" Awhile earlier." Diya said.

" Were you there?" I asked her.

" I came to talk to the doctor about Divya. But then he was called by the nurses. When we reached there he was already gone, Ian." He said and I closed my eyes. It sliced my heart into pieces.

I failed again. Couldn't save my kids. I promised her that nothing will happen to them but I couldn't keep it till the end.

" I wanna see him." I said and went inside.

They followed me silently. I wouldn't be able to do this if they were not with me. I mean I felt it like I have some strength inside me which they were giving me.

" Mr. Kingston!!" The doctor said and I sighed.

" I heard it already." I said to them.

" We are sorry." He said.

" You are not supposed to be." I said to him.

I saw the baby boy who has left us before he even opened his eyes. I just picked him up and looked at him closely. He is like sleeping and will wake up any soon but I knew it was a big fat lie. I just kissed on his forehead and give him back to the doctor wiping my tears hiding them. I felt myself being hugged by my siblings. I tried hard to hold back but everyone has his limits. I think that was mine. I just hugged them back and let my emotions flow this time. How long can someone hold on?!! Until how long!!!

" How is my daughter?" I asked the doctor.

" She is quite well." He said.

" Do whatever you want but save her. Please." I said to him and he patted my shoulder.

" We are trying our best, Mr. Kingston." He said and we came out of there.

The hardest part was to tell them this news. I mean no one was ready to accept that. I was not able to see this anymore.

" One thing I should clear to everyone that no one will tell Divya about this until she is well. She shouldn't know anything about this." I said and they nodded.

" Ian!!!" I heard Mrs. Woods' voice. I turned to see her with extreme hatred.

" Why have you come here? To celebrate this? You must be very happy that my child is no more? Aren't you?! After all you are doing that all the time." I said to her.

" No, Ian. You are taking me wrong. It's nothing like that." She said.

" Whatever it is stay away from me and my family. I don't want to see your face. Please, I request you." I said to my aunt and she sighed.

" I am sorry for everything, Ian." She said.

" Your sorry can't buy anything. But I swear you are deleted from my life." I said to her.

" Ian-" she was saying but the nurse came and it stopped her.

" Mr. Kingston, your wife is awake. She wants to meet you." She said and I nodded.

I took a deep breath. I am going to lie to her for the first time. God, please make it the first and last one. I knew it was the hardest thing for me to do now.