Last Time We Met (Marupok Series #1)

LTWM 11

I said No.

It was a tough decision to make but I don't want to make any mistakes that can cause hurting other people.

Alam kong kahit saan banda tingnan, mali ang desisyon ko at mukhang selfish. I can see the pain through Tim's eyes that time but I really do not want to lie, I don't want to cheat on my feelings that's why I answered him honestly. 

The people around us thinks that I already have a perfect life compare to the life that I used to have before. Malayo na ang narating ko, I already got my degree, I have already enough money to pay off the debts we have before. My mother can finally live in peace and enjoy life and I have my own house. And the fact that people are praising me because of my boyfriend and how ideal our relationship is. 

Wala naman akong problema kay Tim. I love him, I really do. 

Pero hindi ko alam sa mga oras na iyon kung bakit ako nagdalawang isip. Ang mga ganoong senaryo at sitwasyon sa buhay hindi dapat nagkakaroon ng pagdadalawang isip. If you really love a person with all your heart, why would you have doubts like me? Or I didnt just love Tim all by my heart? What if all this time I just love him but not the love that I used to give before? 

Tinabi ko na lang ang puting kahon na iyon at inayos na ang gamit ko tsaka nagsimula nang magtrabaho. 

I was checking my patients records and schedules for the next few days. Mabuti na rin sigurong pumasok na talaga ako para naman malibang kahit papaano at mawala sa isip ko ang sinabi ni Tim at mga nangyari sa hospital. Speaking of Tim, is he really serious? But my answer doesn't change a bit right now, hanggang kailan kami ganito? Will I receive a cold shoulder treatment? Or we'll be back to how we used to be? 

With all the questions circulating my mind, I decided to texted him. Tim and I are not the texting type of person and we will only do this to update each other dahil madalas ay busy kami sa trabaho ng isa't-isa. But this time, I have the urge to text him because I feel like his being distant to me. 

From: Skylar Blaire 
Until when are we going to be like this? You're confusing me, Tim. 

Pikit mata ko itong sinend para hindi masyadong kabahan sa magiging reply nito sa akin. I put my phone down and faced my laptop only to find out that I got an email from Arman. The subject content written there says, "IMPORTANT" so I clicked it as fast as I can. 

Armando Natividad Go <armanpogi4eves@gmail.com>

What the hell? Hindi pa rin nito binabago ang email address niya! 

And don't tell he's going out there to his patients and other people telling that this is his email address for his work? Oh my gosh, Arman. 

Hinilot ko ang sentido ko dahil si Arman naman ngayon ang nagbibigay ng sakit ng ulo ko. 

I started to read the email that he sent to me just now. 

Nasira phone ko now lang at hindi ka naman online sa social media accounts mo kaya dito na lang kita i-iinform. Punta ka sa ospital now na. ASAP. Need ka namin tol. K thnx. GLOYWH. 

Huh? What was that about? Bakit kailangan ako sa hospital? 

At talagang ngayon na ba? 

At higit sa lahat, anong ibig sabihin nitong 'GLOYWH'? Minsan ang sarap din kasing kutusan nitong kaibigan ko. Hindi ko malaman kung may sira ba talaga sa ulo ito dati pero ngayon, unti-unti na 'tong napapatunayan. 

Mabilis akong tumayo at kinuha ang gamit ko para sundin ang sinasabi nitong si Arman. Kinuha ko ang susi ng sasakyan ko at binilinan si Yaya Amy na baka nasa hospital ako buong araw. At dahil sa pagmamadali ko ay hindi ko man namalayan na naiwan ko pala ang cellphone ko sa bahay. Naalala ko lang ito nang makarating na ako sa entrance mismo ng hospital. 

Binati ako ng mga security sa harap at ngumiti na lang ako habang hinahanap kung nasaang lupalop ng hospital itong si Arman.

"Si Arman?" Tanong ko kay Nurse Cindy nang madaanan ko sila sa baba dito sa emergency ward. 

Nagkibit balikat lang ito at sumenyas na hindi niya alam kaya nagpatuloy na lang ako sa paglalakad. Huwag niya sabihing iikutin ko itong buong hospital para mahanap siya? Sa daming floors nito, huwag na no! Baka mamaya mahimatay uli ako.