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52. Loss

Kylie's P.O.V

I ran into the hospital so I could go see the only support I have left. As I speed walked down the hallway all the nurses stared and whisperd things about. I came to my mothers room but the door was already slightly open. I walked in only to be meeted with a stripped bed and no mum.

"Wheres my mom?" I said lightly and the doctor dropped the phone and look at my astonished.

"Where's my mom!?!" I said more worried. He was mummbleing words I couldn't understand.

"Where is she?!!!!!" I scearmed a tear trailed down my face. He started to lightly shake his head.

"I'm sorry...." He said as I kept repeating 'no' as I paced around the hallway. "Her kidneys were very bad and her lungs just quit and we didn't have enough time to resesitate her."

"Your lying!!!! Huh, you are lying. She can't be gone she was fine yeaterday. Where is she. Just tell me what room shes in. She's okay..." I rambled on as I slowly started to drive myself insane.

"We tried to call your home phone but no one was answering and....." He looked at my tear staided face I looked at he like a sad puppy. "And...I'm so sorry about your loss." He said sadly and put a hand on my shoulder. That was the word the word that shattered my world. The word that brought all the pain back.

"Would you like to go see her." He asked softly as I shook my head repetitively and slid down the wall to the floor. The breathlessness as I fought for air. It felt like I was chocking on my tears.

"Okay!!! I get it!!!!...I get it now." I scearmed to the heavens. I get God is trying to kill me with such emotional pain because I still haven't done it myself. Well he doesnt have to worry about it anymore because I'm sick of this feeling.

I got up and got the my asthma medication I have in my bag. I took the 33 pills in my hand and plastic cup of water and waited to for him to take me. That's when it all went black.