Jenalyn: Crossing Lines (#4) [Complete]

Chapter 52: Hayden

Monday, 2:27 P.M. EST

I don’t know what’s happening anymore. 

Dane lied… numerous times, and said that Sierra’s weak ass head game was better than mine just so that he could shoot me up some more. 

So I’m probably a little lost because of the drugs scrambling my head. Not only that, but I’m also a little lost because of his decisions this afternoon. 

After he finished with his little “game,” he thought it best to leave both me and Sierra in his house, unsupervised, after that shit that happened yesterday.

Where does that make any sense?

She fucking stole from him, for Pete’s sake! Under my watch! 

So we’ve both been sitting here... hating each other and wanting to take care of the unfinished business we have- but doing nothing because we’re both too high to function.

“So... what’s the deal with ratting me out me anyway? You had it out for me from the start?” Sierra asks, breaking the silence that’s surrounded us both for the past ten minutes we’ve been left alone. “-you don’t like me or something because I’m your ‘stand-in?’ ... because it ain’t by choice! I didn’t even know Dane knew Hayden before Evy told me.” 

Ugh... why did she have to talk? 

I thought the silence was going to be unbearable when it started because I was sure I’d have a million voices all bombarding me at once, telling me about how horrible of a mother I was because I let Dane pump drugs into my arm four times. I tried my damnedest not to let it happen, and I want my baby girl more than anything. The voices wouldn’t see it like that, and I’d have to fight with them and fight with them and fight with them.

It’s been pretty silent up there though. I guess I forgot the reason I turned to drugs in the first place.

“You can have him, ya know,” Sierra says after a few moments of my continued silence. “I didn’t even... not like you.“

She doesn’t sound like the bitch she’s sounded like from the moment I met her- it could just be because she’s high, but she sounds pretty normal. Almost… desperate to get my approval in some way, if you ask me… 

But I guess I’m pretty high too, so... who knows.

“You lied to me, and wanted me to take the blame for you stealing his drugs!” I say, finding the strength to narrow my eyes at her despite my muscles feeling like jelly.  “That seems more like you had it out for me. And I know I can have him. I can always have him.” 

Sierra let’s out a small laugh, her body sinking further down the dresser where she leans. For a moment she just stares at me, seemingly contemplating what to say next. I can’t read the look on her face, but I can see that she grows slightly offended. 

Is this real? 

This is the same girl that tried to frame me, fought me in an attempt to kill me and my unborn daughter, and talks a bunch of shit just for the fuck of it! 

She let’s out a sigh after a moment. She rolls her eyes as if she’s about to say something she didn’t want to.

“From what I heard, you could get away with stealing his drugs, okay?” she says after a second. “-and excuse me for trying to get out of here when ‘the real thing’ came back, and labeled me useless and up for death-row! You think I knew that you would rat me out, and that I’d have to fight you? Nooo, I was just trying to get the fuck out of here so I don’t fucking die!”

I feel kind of bad when she puts it like that, but I can’t help myself from keeping my guard up. “You didn’t have to fight me like that! You tried to kill my fucking baby!” I tell her matter-of-factly, flattening my brows once again. “I didn’t even hit you before I knew I had to. And you could have stopped!”

I can feel myself starting to come down from my last dose before Dane left. 

I hate to admit it, but the only part of me coming into my mind right now is upset about it… comedowns are no good. 

Sierra’s jaw falls open as she pulls herself from the dresser and leans toward me. 

“It’s not even like that, Hayden! I promise!” she grows defensive. “Do you know what would have happened to me had I not listened to him?! I stole from him and tried to leave town! The only reason I’m alive right now is because I did what I had to do! And I’m sorry! But from what I understand, you should get it!“