The Arcana X Reader

The Moon?

Julian X Reader
   The Moon

You've felt depressed for a bit now, you wanted to know about your past but Asra was just too stubborn to help you remember, you wondered what you were like and how it could help in Julian's case...

Nadia has tried, she tried to dream and everyone tried to help you but you felt as if you couldn't help them, you hated being selfish but for once you wanted to care for yourself! It was just a simple question for Asra but none could avail the question.

You began wasting your days at the bar Julian usually goes to and wasting money on drinks, you danced with folks and talk and whatnot but when you'd sit back down you'd feel the weight of the world dropping at your shoulders; making you slump over in sorrow and your thoughts...

Julian noticed you began drinking more and more and slowly becoming an alcoholic, one night he decided it was enough and you needed help in some way. Julian has the bar tenders close early so you wouldn't be able to get in. He took you the beach and walked with you for hours. You told him your feelings and he suggested a few things..

   You felt...  tears? You placed your fingertips at your cheeks feeling a slight dampness on your Rosie cheeks. You looked up at Julian "why am I crying? What is this?"
"You're at your peak... you're going to breakdown" he said holding you.

You felt anger arise in your body and flared back up at him "you're saying this because I'm drinking huh? Isn't that the case? Why'd you bring me out here Julian? Because it wasn't to confess your feelings! It was to make me feel guilty about myself because of a simple question!" You hugged out as tears streamed down your cheeks. You attempted to hit his chest but it didn't effect him at all.

You ran off to hide in your room, Asra had woken up in the process and sighed. He knocked on your door and sleepily asked;
  "Y/n? Open the door. Let's talk"

"No.."

  "I'll make tea. Your favorite kind of tea?"

"No.."

  "Please open the door. You can't keep saying no forever"

There was a long pause. A creek was heard at the other side of the door, it sounded like a door or a window.

  You indeed were trying to escape. You sniffle silently while walking away, slowly starting to run faster to who knows where.

  ~_~

You passed out near a tree, the sun hit your face creating a golden look onto your face.

Julian has found you and places his thick coat on you, knowing you're a light sleeper he didn't want to wake you up. You soon woke up with a gasp making the coat fall off your shoulders, Julian perked his head towards you with a shocked face.
  "Y/n? What happened to you?"

You leaned over, not to throw up, but to scream. Your body had ached so badly you began to shake in utter fear.
You gasped for air and coughed out a black smoke. You began screaming and rolling over and begging Julian for help. He tried his damn best to get you to calm down but it took almost five minutes to settle you down onto his lap.

You calmed down and looked up at him "Julian? Where are we? What am I doing here?" You asked questions galore and Julian answered them all..

But

  Now was his turn to ask questions.

"Y/n, what happened to you?"
"What do you mean? What did I do wrong?"
"You woke up and began screaming and coughing out smoke, you begged for me to help and I tried figuring out what was wrong but... I couldn't do I say you done and now we're here"
"I—— Lucio.... that bond we made... every night I have the same dream, every time it gets more realistic... and now... I'm breathing out smoke.... I'm sorry Julian.... for the way I've acted... I just.... I want to know more about my past, I want to know more about this 'murder' I want answers and not some silly game of back and forth. I just— for once I need to know"

Julian sighed and looked into your eyes.
  "When you were found, Asra send Faust to come find me. When I came over to look for any wounding I found a royal burn mark on the back of your neck. I had instantly assumed you were tortured by Lucio's tribe. When you woke up months later... we forgot everything. I know this because I wrote it down hundreds of times to figure out anything different." Julian side and held you closer "the more you began to learn the quicker that mark faded away. But when Lucio died.. we all forgot everything.. meeting each other. Befriended everyone."

You nodded and faced down. "Thank you Julian..."

To him you looked lost and sad. He looked at you "tell me what you want? The moon? I'll throw a lasso around it and pull it down and give it to you if that's what you want." He said softly trying to find that beautiful smile of yours. You giggled and judged him.

"Can we. Go? I really need to shower and get the alcohol out of my body before I get sick"

He laughed and you two left.

After awhile you both spent your day at the docks looking down at the fish. He turned to you and leaned down to place a chaste kiss on your lips. You kissed back quickly and smirked. Pushing him into the water. He panicked and pulled you in with him. Laughing and holding you tightly.

Everything seemed to be amazing...

  For all you'll know...