Dirty Duty || TAEJIN ☑️

Defeated

an:

Please bear with Jin. He's annoying at times. 😂🤭

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Taehyung

I can say that I am in deep shock seeing Jin in my office. I'm not prepared for this.

I've been looking for him for 8 straight months and all I know was, he's in Jeju, and in the middle of the sea working in a small shipping vessel. That's the last information that came to me. Little did I know that he's back in Seoul.

I must admit, I didn't see it coming. He arrived with the same bad ass attitude he had when I first met him. Of course, he will not make it easy for me.

"You can bring whoever you want as long as I know him. I don't want a stranger in my home." I granted his request. For him to think that I will not harass him when he visits our son. And perhaps, he wanted to annoy me by bringing Jungkook. I don't really mind.

"Great!" he mused. I finally see him smile. How can he be this handsome? I've never seen him like this when he's still with me in the mansion. He looks utterly beautiful.

Jin stood up and bowed at me. "It was nice seeing you again Mr. Kim."

Why is he so formal? He should be calling me Taehyung. He's cold. He's treating me cold.

He walks towards the door. But I think we need to talk more. I need to know what happened to him. How is he doing. Straight from him and not from someone else.

"Jin can you stay for a little while?" I asked. He stopped from walking. I don't know what he's thinking. I don't have any bad intentions. I couldn't blame him for being like this.

Hoseok already warned me. Jin was struggling. He looked frail and weak. He's wearing rags and smelling like the sea. He was tanned, a proof that he's working under the sun for so many hours. But I didn't saw him that way.

Too far from the ethereal beauty that came in front of me. Just now.

He turned to look at me. He came back to sit.

"What is it that you want?" He asked.

"How are you?" That's what I am longing to ask.

"I would be lying again if I will say that I'm okay. I'm not okay Mr. Kim." He answered me with a straight face.

I sat across him. "Why are you so formal? Why are you like that to me?"

He stared at me before pulling a large amount of air. "I came here for our son. Not do discuss anything personal. I believe there's nothing else to talk about Mr Kim."

"Stop that Jin. You know my name. Call me by my name. Stop treating me like someone new to you. We have a son Jin. Don't act like we've just met." I'm starting to get frustrated by his choice of words. His stares pierced this time. I know I made him angry.

And like what I'm expected, things gone wrong. I should have not triggered him. He's vulnerable right now.

"And what do you expect me to do? Come here like nothing happened? Like we're friends who haven't seen each other in a long while? You know what happened between us and how it ended. Don't expect me to believe that it's just okay with you and that we are okay in general."

I know I have some control issues. And he's starting to test me. He's making me feel guilty. "And why is it you're making me feel like it's all my fault?"

He snorted. "I did not say that. I'm just saying, let's be real. You poke a gun on my forehead, hit me, pushed me and you slapped me across my face. I will not act like some stupid shit, coming in your office, like we are okay. All smiles like we are friends. I'm just being civil here."

"Gosh Jin! I can't believe you will brought everything up. You know exactly why it all happened. Don't tell me that I did just because I want it. You know why!"

"Let me just remind you Mr. Kim that I already paid the consequences of my actions. I already made an apology before you kicked me out of your mansion. I killed my father for you and i gave your mother's sapphire back. I betrayed you and I already paid for that." This is the same Jin that I met before. Hard headed, strong willed and sometimes, unreasonable.

"So you want me to feel guilty about it? okay I admit! I felt so guilty! I have suffered enough Jin! I almost go crazy thinking about you and our baby. I can't sleep at night thinking about your well being. I almost lose my mind looking for you." I have to tell him that I am weak too. But he misunderstood. I think I'm not really good in words.

"Like it amounts to what I have been through? Do I need to apologize again?" Tears started to fall from his eyes. I watched it settle for a moment on his chin before it fell on his top. "Why Taehyung? Have you cried to sleep because of hunger? Have you exchange a meal so you can buy Taejin some clothes and milk? Have you sleep on a damp cold floor with no roof above your head? Just because I am the one who sinned, does it mean I don't have the right to feel wrecked? I'm not blaming you. I know I deserved all of that but don't make me feel like it's only you who suffered! And i can't accept the fact that I need to feel all of that with my innocent baby."

"Jin I looked for you! I looked everywhere for you." I'm trying to calm things down but it seemed it gotten worst.

He smirked. "You only look for me because you found out that I am pregnant. If I'm not pregnant you will not look for me!"

I shook my head. "No Jin. That's not true."

"Stop!" He stood up. "I think I should leave now. I don't want to talk about our issues Taehyung." He walk towards the door and out of my office. He did not slam the door closed like what I am expecting him to do.

I should have not played the blaming game today. I should have listened to Hoseok. Jin is totally unguarded right now. He is overly sensitive.

But I guess, before anything else, I should talk to Jimin.