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I heard a knock on the door. It must be Jungkook. I hesitate to open. Half of me wanted to stay but the other wanted to go.
With Taejin in my arms and the baby bag on my shoulder, I opened the door and like whom I expected, it's Jungkook.
"Are you ready?" Jungkook asked and I can only nod.
I don't know why my heart is so heavy right now.
Jungkook's phone rings. He looked at it. "I'll get the call first. Wait for me."
He walks far from me. I clicked the lock before closing the door. Like what Taehyung instructed me to do.
My Taejin is awake. He keeps on humming. He is too little for his parents drama. I wonder how he will react when he grew up only with Taehyung and can only see his birth father every weekend. I wonder how he will take it.
Jimin can't understand what's holding me back. Anger? Fear? Mostly, the second one.
Fear of rushing into love then breaking my heart into pieces. Fear of forcing myself to be loved by the people who don't really care then end up being disappointed. Fear of making myself vulnerable again. Not thinking about the consequences of my actions because all I want was for them to love me. Letting them use me just to get the love that I long wanted. Then end up alone and hurt.
In the first place, I should not rush into love, into loving and being loved. Love is not a race. If love is a race, there will be a loser and a winner. If love is a race, there will be a finish line. Love should not be like that. Love has no boundaries. No finish line. You and your partner should win and lose at the same time.
That's what I wanted for me and Taehyung. Take things slowly. Get to know each other better again. We have sides that we don't know yet.
I am the one who betrayed him. I should be ashamed. I should keep distance. I don't even know if he's already healed from the pain I caused him. Or he just shrugged it off because he learned that I am pregnant. Should it be like that? Pain needs healing. Not just to be shrugged off.
I have fears that he will have trust issues over me. I don't want him to calculate all the things that I am doing or assume that I am doing something wrong. Trust. What a big word. He gave that to me so easily before. Just because he likes me. How can he give it back again that easy after a betrayal? Too good to be true if he will give it back that easily.
As much as I want to apologize, I have my own struggles too. I need to heal too. Though I know that I deserved everything that happened to me. I can't help not to blame those people who made me do such things. I felt bitter. All I want is to be loved. I've said that too many times. I cannot love again if I have too many fears and insecurities inside me.
"You need to sit down and have a talk with Taehyung Jin. That's all you need to do." Jungkook said from behind. "Just go back inside and talk. I will take care of Taejin. I can stay the whole night."
I shook my head. "Let's go home now hyung. Jimin is waiting for me."
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Jimin
Beep
My phone beeps. This is probably Jin. I cooked our dinner. He should be here before it gets cold. But it's not Jin.
So it's you who kept Jin. How dare you not tell me. I kept my promise not to hurt him. All you need to do is to tell me his whereabouts!
"This fucking bastard!" I dialled his number. And he picks up almost immediately. "What are you talking about that I need to tell you his where abouts? As far as I know, we are done!"
"I cannot do that! I already kept everything a secret. I already told you, I will not do anything more than that. My only task was to to tell you once he called. I only have one request, you promised to keep him alive."
He talks non-sense again.
"I know you kept your promise. I kept my promise too. But I did not tell you that I will keep him away from Taehyung. You know I want them together."
"Shut up! I'm not afraid of you. Bring it on you coward shit!"
I hanged the phone. That fuck. How dare he scare the shit out of me. i have a gun. I know how to kill. I know how to break a neck. He cannot black mail me or else, he will only exposed himself to the world. The last thing that he wanted to happen.
I
opened the TV to at least lessen the anger that I am feeling right now. I should have not allowed him to lure me into that. I know I felt a little guilty but all I want is for Taehyung and Jin to be safe.
Or shall I tell Jin? Or Taehyung? Do I need to confess that I did something unreasonable? I think what I did before was reasonable enough. I did not expect that Jin will suffer that much. I think that what makes me more guilty. I know I should tell Jin the truth one of this days before that bastard comes out and tell everyone lies and pin me up the wall.
