Dirty Duty || TAEJIN ☑️

Healing

Taehyung

Yoongi has been my companion for all the crazy things that I've been doing all those two years that Jin is not with me. I know he's tired but I'm glad he's there to give me advice and to let me feel like a fucking coward.

I am a tough brave man. I can be dangerous too. But Jin is the only one who can tame the tiger in me. He's the only one who can control the beast in me.

It's 10 in the evening and I saw his helper and the nanny went out of the cafe. Their usual routine every day. I've been like this for almost two years now. Watching Jin from afar whenever I can.

I went out of my car and run my fingers through my hair. Getting all the courage that I've been saving for so many years now. I walk towards his cafe. The sign hanging on his front door is CLOSED. I saw him leaning down on the crib and carefully lifting Beomgyu up. I pushed the door open and the chimes went ringing.

"I'm sorry we're..." He looks behind and stops as soon as he saw me. Our son in his arms and sleeping. His eyes fixed on me and are starting to glisten.

I never believe that time stops whenever you're in that moment that you've been dreaming to happen the most. And now, I finally believe that. We just stare at each other. Maybe trying to recognize if we still knew each other.

The last time he went missing and we met for the first time after a long time, he only wants visitation rights for Taejin. The meeting was not good at all. It is full of resentment and anger. But today, it is entirely different. It is Sentimental but wonderful. Different kind of emotions filling my entirety.

For a very long time, I can only watch him from afar. But now that he's a few meters away from me, I can see that not a lot has changed. He's still beautiful. Maybe even more today. Or he's just getting more and more beautiful each day? I'm sure.

***

He puts a cup of hot chocolate and a panini on the table and sits across my seat. He plays with the spoon on his cup, not daring to look at me.

"How are you?" I asked, trying to catch his gaze.

"I'm okay." He's still looking at his cup of coffee. "You eat that. It's delicious."

I know. I think I already tried all the food in his cafe. I smiled as I took a bite. Indeed, it's delicious. "I'm happy that you are able to do what you really want to do and what you do best."

He smiles shyly but it made him even cuter. I want him to look at me but I can feel that he's uncomfortable. Shy? Perhaps. "Cooking is my passion. And yes, I'm so happy and proud of my cafe."

"That's great to hear. I'm so proud of you too."

An awkward silence follows. It feels like we are two strangers trying to get to know each other. Two years really do feels like forever. I know it's difficult for both of us to talk as if nothing happened.

"How are you?" Jin finally looks at me. Even just for a second, at least, I finally caught his gaze.

"I would be lying if I will say that life is great. But I'm fine knowing that you're okay. I know how happy and contented you are when you finally opened this cafe."

Jin nods as he fidgets on his fingers. "I-it's almost midnight. Did you book a hotel? I don't think it's still safe to drive at night."

I chuckled. "I already live here in Busan, Jin."

He looks at me surprise written all over his face. It must be a question of how and why.

"I moved here more than a year ago. 18 months to be exact. Just in case you wanted to ask."