Dirty Duty || TAEJIN ☑️

Being a Father

"Are you sure you don't want me to come with you?" Jimin asked as he dropped me in front of Taehyung's condo.

I smiled. "I'm okay Jimin. Besides, the nanny is there. I'll be fine."

I was about to go off the car when Jimin grabbed my arm. "Jin, please don't start a fight with him? Not good for Taejin to hear his parents fighting."

I laughed at his reaction. "I promise. Stop worrying too much."

Jimin advised me to apologize to Taehyung. After all, the whole mess started with me. Somehow, he's right but I think I apologized and did enough for my mistakes. I may have the bad intention at first but along the way, I know in my heart that I did something right to at least lessen the damage. But apologies doesn't mean I am ready to have another relationship with him. I am going to stick with my take it slow motto.

I closed the passenger door and walk towards the building. The ladies inside the elevator all looked at me when I pressed the button of the highest floor.

"You will meet Kim Taehyung?" One of them asked me.

"Yes." I said shyly.

"Oh gosh for real? Are you his friend? He's so handsome and very hot! He's also one of the nicests here. Are you going to visit him? Are you cousins?" Too many questions and all of them are smiling at me. Waiting for my answer.

"I'm going to visit our son." I answered and their faces seemed in deep shock. And that's when I realized, I should have not said that. Maybe Taehyung wanted it confidential.

The bell rung and it's already their floor. They all bowed to me, apologizing for what they said.

As I arrived at the penthouse unit, I walked into a large lobby. Four security personel all looked at me. I already saw them in Taehyung's mansion before. They stayed with their boss. They all greeted me, as if they were already informed that someone will visit Taehyung today. And soon I realized, this is the only unit in this floor. Why did he get a big unit?

I ring the doorbell and it takes almost a minute before Taehyung opened the door.

I am surprised by his looks. He's only wearing white shirt with what looks like a vomit stain and shorts. He's not wearing any slippers at all and his hair looks like a mess. In his right hand is a diaper and a milk bottle on the other.

"I'm sorry Jin. Taejin just pooped. He also vomits. I don't know how to make him burp after drinking milk." Taehyung looks exhausted and jumbled.

I laughed. I get the diapers from his hand. "Where is he?" I asked, still laughing.

"In my bedroom upstairs." He pointed at the stairs.

Maybe I'm still comfortable dealing with Taehyung as I immediately went upstairs. There are three doors and I peaked on the opened one. I found a crib and my Taejin was there, kicking and punching on air while cooing.

I leaned over to pick him up. My little boy. How can he grow up so fast? It's been only a month but my baby looks bigger now. "Sweetheart, appa misses you so much." I put him close to my chest. I want him to hear and feel the very familiar heartbeat he once listened to and feel with when he's still inside me and when we were still together.

I know for a fact that my heartbeat is music in his ears. And I love how he coos upon hearing it. Perhaps, he feels that his appa is here. His appa is near.

"Let's go and appa will clean you." I said.

Taehyung opened the bathroom door and I went in. I picked up a towel and gave it to Taehyung. "Please lay it on the counter Tae."

He unfold it and placed it on the sink counter. I place Taejin there and removed his diapers and tossed it in the trash bin. "You hold him, I will wash his bum."

While cleaning our baby, I teach Taehyung how to hold the baby properly. To always take care of his neck and back. How to clean him especially when he's alone.

"Where's his nanny?" I asked while gently patting Taejin to dry him up.

"It's her day off every weekend." His voice sounds a little shy. Probably because I saw him looking enervated.

"So you're like this every weekend?" I wanted to laugh at the thought of Taehyung in shambles.

"For the past one month.. yeah." He said, sighing.

I put on Taejin's pajamas to finish. And pick him up again. I miss carrying him. "You can take a rest today. I will take care of him. I will use the other room if available so you can sleep here."

I turned my eyes to Taehyung and saw him shirtless. I immediately take my eyes away. I just remembered, Taejin vomit on his shirt.

"No it's okay. Just stay here." I side eyed him as he walks inside his walk in closet.

After changing his shirt, he went out of the bedroom. I started to dance softly with Taejin in my arms. I used to do this in our cramped, dark, dirty and stinky storage room back in Jeju. I can't imagine laying him in a worn out mattress. Washing his clothes everyday because I only have seven pairs of them.

Now, my Taejin is sleeping in a very comfortable crib and wearing beautiful and comfortable clothes. Inside a large, well lit and very clean room. I never regret giving you to your father. I only regret the times without you beside me. I thought.

I went down to get something to drink and found Taehyung eating cereals. "Sorry I don't have something to offer. I can't cook anymore on weekends."

"Is that breakfast Tae?" I asked because he looks hungry.

He shook his head and chuckled. "Lunch."

Cereals for lunch? He can order food right? It means he don't even have the time to order?

"You're not yet adjusted to being a father right? You seem disorganized." I pity this man.

"I honestly don't have any idea how I can fix my schedule." He gulped down a glass of orange juice.

With Taejin in my arms, I opened his fridge. "You have complete supplies here. Who's doing the grocery?"

"Me. But I have no time to cook. I don't even have time to order a meal. Do you want anything?" He offered.

"No, I'm okay. When the nanny is here, you can cook?" I wonder how the nanny is eating.

"She can cook. I usually eat out before going home."

I sigh.

"Just put him in his crib. I will cook you home made meal. You cannot eat take out foods all the time. That's unhealthy."

I said as I put a sleeping Taejin in his arms. Taehyung looks puzzled.