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I ended up in a pastry shop with Jungkook near the bus station. Jimin will come in an hour, so I agree to talk to him to somewhere a little quiet.
"What happened to you? What's this?" He said as he looked at my hands with some small scars, and his eyes wander on my tanned skin.
"Work." I just smiled. I don't want to say something more.
"Work? What's your work?" I still can feel the concern in his voice. The same concern when he's still my hyung.
"Just don't ask Jungkook. I am already fired by the way. And I'm okay. Don't look at me like I am one miserable man." My heart wanted to burst.
Regrets. Sadness. Frustrations. Anger. It's all in my heart.
He shakes his head. "No. I'm not looking you that way. I just wanted to know how are you."
"Do I look okay?" I stared in his eyes. My eyes welling up with tears. "Do I look fine? Or better? Or do I look wretched like what you all wanted me to be?"
"Why are you thinking that way?"
I smirked. "You don't know what I've been through Jungkook. You and your brother Taehyung. I don't have the right to get angry at you and I know I deserved all of this." I started to cry in silence. I covered my mouth with my hand. "B-but it's just too much."
"Taehyung and Yoongi came here for you. Why you didn't come with them?" His question puzzled me.
"Come for me? I didn't see them. And he will not come for me." I wiped my tears. Taehyung will not come here for me. "He don't want to see my face again. You're there when he said that."
"Jin we looked for you. He followed you in -"
"In Haenam I know. He followed me there and in Jeju. Why? Because he learned that I'm pregnant? He will never think of following me if he did not learned that I'm carrying his child." I don't have the right to feel enraged over Taehyung but that's what I am feeling right now.
"No Jin. He followed you because he loves you." And he's now defending his brother.
"Stop it Jungkook." I closed my eyes. I don't know what's love anymore. Love puts me to where I am today. And I absolutely regret why I chose to betray just for love. "Taehyung only wants my child. I already gave our son to him. Maybe he's carrying him now."
My heart aches by the thought that my son is not with me anymore but I am feeling better that he will have a brighter future with his father. Painful but still at peace.
"Why are you here by the way?" I asked.
"I'm calling Taehyung and Yoongi but they are not picking up. There's an emergency in the office and I need a back up plan. I went here hoping I can find them here. I'm about to leave for Hoseok's apartment but I saw you."
"If there's an emergency in your office then I guess you should go now." I stood up but Jungkook hold my arm.
"Please Jin sit down for a while. I want to talk to you more." He said as he tried to pull me back.
"Jungkook, I have nothing else to say. Let's just be thankful that we know that we're both alive and breathing. Right?"
Jungkook stood up and pulled me into a tight hug. As much as I want to push him away, my arms wrapped around his waist instead.
I think I just missed him.
"Just come with me Jin. I'm alone in my unit. There's plenty of room for you." He said as he finally pulled out from the embrace.
"Not a great idea. Besides, in reality, we don't have any connection to each other. Thank you but I can't accept your offer." I just smiled. "Did you already forgive me Jungkook?"
He nods. "Of course. And I'm sorry I let you go. I think I'm caught totally off guard with everything that you said. I'm sorry Jin. I should have stand for you."
"That's okay. It's enough that you have forgiven me. And, Jungkook can you please do me a favor?" I asked
"Sure, what's that?" He eagerly asked.
"Please don't tell Taehyung that you saw me. I don't want him to know anything more about me. And please, take care of my baby. Will you?"
I know Jungkook hesitates to agree but he nods and makes a promise. I hope he will keep it. He gave me a huh and a kiss on the forehead before he left.
I waited until he drove his car away. I don't want him to know that I'll be staying with Jimin. And I don't want him to pity me more.
I'm just happy that I am forgiven. Besides, we've been brothers for 22 years. I know he can never be angry at me for long. I still know him well.
I went back to the station to wait for Jimin. Thinking if I shall stay in Seoul or go back to Jeju. I hope Jimin can help enlightened my mind. I am too preoccupied by my thoughts about my son. I missed my Taejin so much and it hurts me knowing that I am going to sleep tonight without him beside me. My precious little boy.
But still happy that he's going to sleep in a soft bed or crib tonight. He will sleep in an air conditioned, well lit and spacious room. My son deserves it. And only his father can give that to him.
"Jin!! Oh my gosh I miss you!" Jimin called as he came running to hug me. "What happened to you?"
I know everyone's asking me that because of how I looked like now. And I can't answer them that life has been hitting me hard.
"Can we talk about it in your house Jimin? I'm tired and hungry." I said as Jimin pulled me towards his car.
