Dirty Duty || TAEJIN ☑️

Mistakes, Confusions

Jungkook

I felt a tap on my foot causing me to groan. I'm still sleepy. I opened my eyes. Seems like I only sleep for ten minutes. I felt tired and extremely lethargic.

"Breakfast is ready." It's Jin waking me up. Still no smile from his face, but I think he feels better now.

He's already settled at the dining table when I went out of my bedroom. He already took a shower and already in office attire.

"I'm sorry Kookie I borrowed your clothes. I need to go to my first day at work today." For real?

"You don't have to go to the office if you're not feeling well," I said while I sipped from the cup of coffee he just prepared. It still tastes the same. Just the way I like it.

"I need to. That's Jimin's huge favor from his best friend. And I need to work. I saw a pair of cute shoes in the mall last time. I want to buy those for Taejin." He said as he put a strip of bacon in his mouth.

"Let me take you to the office then?" I asked. I want to make sure that he will really go to the office and not somewhere else. Now that Jin's mind is a little chaotic, I wanted to make sure that he will not do something crazy again.

"Okay. That's what I am going to ask you anyway." He smiled.

At last, I saw a smile from his beautiful face again.

How I wish I can love him the way Taehyung is loving him and him loving me like how he loves Taehyung. Yet he only treats me as his bother. Nothing more. That's the sad truth and I don't want to expect more than that. More than what is already obvious.

"How are you?" I asked timidly. Watching how he swallows the bacon greedily. Ever since he came back, I noticed how he has a huge appetite.

His chewing gets slower. I know he doesn't like my question but I wanted to know how he feels right now. "I'm good." He presses his lips and smiled weakly. "I'm sorry about last night Kookie. I know I should have not done that or even thought about doing that. I'm sorry if I am weak. It's just that, I am unstable right now."

Finally, he admitted it. He can't look at me in the eye. If things went wrong last night, either one of us is injured or dead.

Jin is a stubborn, fierce and happy person. That's how I knew him. That's the real him. He is still stubborn about trying to kill himself and not giving the gun to me. But right now, he is tamed and dejected.

I stood up to sit beside him, pulling the chair closer to him. I hold his hand and place it between my hands. He looked at me, his eyes full of grief. I dared to stare back, carefully holding his gaze. "Please don't do that again." My plead came out as a whisper.

I move my head forward, closer to Jin. "K-kookie.." I heard him calling my name. I watch how his lips quiver. He immediately put the palm of his hand against my chest. I know he wanted to push me. But instead, I removed his hand and pulled him closer by the waist. He gasped.

"K-kookie. W-what are you.."

My lips pressed against him cutting him out. The way I feel it, I know he is stunned. I am afraid too. I know I should not do this to my brother's love interest. I know I should not do this to the person who considers me as his own brother. But I can't help myself.

I can feel him pulling away and he's not kissing me back. But I only grabbed his head to deepen my kiss. No wonder why Taehyung is so crazy about Jin. His lips are just amazing.

He managed to put his arm between us and he pushed me. "Stop it!!" He yelled at me.

He stood up. He looks confused more than scared. "What did you do?!" He asked me, I can't read his face.

I walk towards him but he stepped back. "No no... Don't touch me." He said.

"Jin I'm sorry, please." I tried to hug him again but he keeps on pushing me away.

"No. No. Go away!" He said again, his hands ready to push me away. But I managed to get hold of him and hugged him tighter.

"Jim I'm sorry. I know I know. Please forgive me." I'm scared. Too scared. I am scared to lose him. I am scared that he will keep me away.

I felt his body relaxed. I loosen my arms and lolled my head on his shoulder. "I'm sorry Jin. I know I should not have done that. I'm really sorry."

He did not say anything to answer me. But I can feel that he does forgive me. If he's still angry, I know that he will not let me hug him.

"Can you get ready? I don't want to be late." That's all he uttered. Maybe to try to get me away from him.

I looked at his glistening eyes. His face still in shock. I turned my back away to my bedroom.

Our whole travel has been quiet. His eyes fixed on the window, looking outside.

"Jin, please don't get mad at me." I look at him, seeing if he will look back. But he did not. I parked on the sides. In front of the building where he will work.

"I'm not mad. I'm just confused." He looked at his hands and started playing with his fingers. "Since when Kookie?"

He's still calling me Kookie. Now I am assured that he's not mad at me. But since when? "I-I am confused before. I thought I love you as a brother but I can feel something else. I tried brushing the thought away because we are brothers. I'm sorry Jin. I know I should have not done that. I know I should have not felt that in the first place. I know you belong to my brother. I am aware of that. Please forgive me."

He sighs. "I don't know how Taehyung would feel once he learned about what you did. Jungkook please, don't you ever do that again. We're brothers. That's how we should be."

"I know." I nod. My eyes on the steering wheel.

"Jimin likes you Kookie. Maybe you can think about that."

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A/N:
This is a TaeJin FanFic. Just a reminder. 😂😂
Errors, I'll try to fix it later. Borahae! 💜