We Met On The Road To Recovery

31.

Faith Elizabeth
Christmas was over within seconds, and onto New Years it was.
There had been no word from Charles or my father and I was glad the action was just dying down.
I was sad that I couldn't see Shawn over the holidays, but we spoke every day and I knew that he was coming to help me move into my apartment.
"Hello beautiful" Shawn said down the phone.
"Hello. You sound awfully happy" I giggled as I pushed some more clothes into another brown cardboard box.
"I am awfully happy" he said and I heard the sound of a car door opening and closing through the phone.
"You're not driving while calling are you?" I asked, worried for his safety.
"No no I'm in a taxi" he said and I furrowed my brows.
"Where are you?" I asked.
"Oh, well, I just went to see Camila and her family this morning and didn't want to drive so I just got a cab back home" he said and I could picture him deeply shrugging his shoulders.
I sighed and slumped down onto my floor.

"Oh...how was it?" I asked pushing my headband further onto my head.
"It was good thanks. What are you doing today?" He asked and I scoffed.
"Packing. Not great" I sighed.
"Well I won't keep you. I'll talk to you later?" He asked and I was surprised at the suddenness of him leaving.
"I guess" I said feeling disappointed.
"Oh wait! What are you doing for New Years tomorrow?" He asked.
"Nothing. What about you?" I asked trying to hide my disappointment of him spending yet another day with Camila.
"I'll probably go into the City. See the fireworks" he said.
"Well I'll be watching the London fireworks from the tv" I snorted.
"I'll send you photos? I don't know if that makes it better or worse" he said and I bit my lip.
"I don't know. Shawn I'm going to go ok? I'll talk you later?"
"Ok. Bye!" He said sounding chipper as ever.

I wiped away my eyes that had started to water and turned back to my boxes.
"Hey sweetheart how's it going?" Mum said poking her head round the corner.
"Good. Fine. Yeah" I said sniffing back the tears.
"What's wrong?" She asked wrapping her arms around me.
"I dunno. Shawn is just spending more time with Camila than me" I whined.
"Is he your boyfriend?" She asked and my breath caught in my throat.
"No"
"Then darling I'm afraid you can't really get jealous. I'm sure things will work itself out. Keep going" she said and kissed my forehead before walking out.

After packing another two boxes I was ready to give up. My parents were out, my sister was at her friends house, so I was alone. I didn't bother attempting to cook and shrugged my coat over my shoulders, put some shoes on and walked to the pizza takeaway shop.
As I was waiting my phone rang and I was surprised to see it was Shawn.
"Hello?" I said.
"Where are you?" He asked.
"I'm out getting food. Why?" I asked pressing the phone to my ear with one hand as I grabbed my food with the other.
"It's cold" he said and I gasped.
I shoved my phone back into my pocket and ran out of the shop.

I ran until I stood outside my house.
As I looked at the porch Shawn was sat there on the top step.
"It's quite cold sat here" he said.
I dropped my pizza and started crying. It was almost involuntary. I just cried.
He bounded down the steps and before I knew it I was wrapped in his strong arms.
"I don't get it" I cried against his chest. "What are you doing here?" I said pulling away from him, cupping his face in my cold hands.
"I couldn't miss my New Years kiss now could I?" He asked and I smiled as he wiped away my tears.
"I thought you would have just kissed some model or Camila" I said and he shook his head.
"I'm kissing you, and I'm kissing you at the top of The Shard as we watch the fireworks" he grinned.
"Are you joking?" I said and cried more.
"Nope" he smiled.
He pulled me back into his body and I smiled as I gripped his tshirt.
"I love you" I whispered at a barely audible level, not wanting him to hear.
"What was that?" He asked.
Shit.