We Met On The Road To Recovery

41.

Faith Elizabeth
"Oh fuck" I breathed out.
It was all I could say.
I didn't know what was happening.
I put one hand over my mouth and one on my chest.
"What is this?" I squeaked out.
Shawn took my hand in his and I internally screamed.
I didn't think he wanted this
Did I want this?
It was so soon.
We'd only been dating two months.
I was only nineteen.
I felt slightly sick.
"Are you proposing?" I asked.
"Well, no"
Ok. That's ok.
"But yes."
"Shawn what is happening?" I asked with a tear rolling down my cheek.
"Well. I love you. You know that. I've gotten to know you over a year now and from the moment we met ive just been drawn to you. I know I've majorly fucked up in the past. But these last two months have been nothing but happiness for me, and I think for you as well. So, this is a half proposal I guess. It is a promise to you that I will do all I can to make you happy and that I want to be with you, and only you" he smiled at the end and I could barely see the ring anymore through my tears.
"Oh my god" I cried, not being able to hold it back.
"What's wrong?" Shawn said and quickly took me into his arms.
"I just, last summer I didn't even think I was going to make it to my birthday. And now this, and I'm just so overwhelmed" I said and he squeezed me tight.
"It's ok." He whispered before I pulled away from him.

I took it all in.
I stared at the gorgeous ring in the box.
I stared at the gorgeous man in front of me.
We had been through such a journey together, with so many ups and downs. By now we probably knew each other inside out. And there was nothing I didn't like. Nothing. But was I really ready to commit to being with him the rest of my life? Was he really ready for that? Was I ready to be thrown into his limelight?

"Are you sure?" I asked.
"Am I sure about what?"
"Wanting this? Wanting me for the rest of your life? I mean, we're still so young" I said and tried to catch my breath.
"I have planned this and thought about it so much. I've spoken to my parents. I spoke to your mum. I've spoken to Andrew. I want this. More than anything. I'm never going to meet another girl like you. No girl would ever compare to you now. I love you with everything I have" he said and I couldn't stop the wide smile on my face.
"I love you too" I smiled.
"So," he said and I held out my left hand.
"Go on then" I sighed in a jokey tone and rolled my eyes. Shawn laughed lightly before sliding the ring on. "It's beautiful"
"I love you so much" he smiled and pulled me through the water so I was sat on top of him.
"I can't believe you want this" I whispered.
"I do. I really do. These past two months with you have just been so special. And as I said, no one could get to know the real me like you know me" he smiled and I nodded. "And I know we've had ups and downs but we do them together now."
"You're such an amazing nan. You know that?" I smiled before pressing my forehead to his.
"An amazing man with an amazing girlfriend slash future fiancée" he said and butterflies fluttered in my heart and in my stomach as he said it. 

He smiled as he pushed his lips to mine and I gladly kissed him back, with as much passion I had within me.
I pulled myself closer to him by wrapping my arms around his neck and in turn, deepening the kiss.
I felt my cheeks heat up as he shuffled around underneath me and a small whine came from his mouth.
He placed a hand on my upper thigh, his thumb going round in circles, making my toes curl.
Everything was just perfect.
Even when everything on us was stripped away, the passion increasing, the noise growing louder, everything was perfect.