We Met On The Road To Recovery

33.

Faith Elizabeth
Nothing happened.
We kissed, a lot, but nothing more happened. And yet as we woke up the next morning and made breakfast, or when we were on the way up to London for New Years, I could almost feel the sexual tension, something I had never really felt since we were filming his video.

Every time his hand would brush against my waist or hold my hand or my thigh I felt a shock of electricity bolt through my body. I hated the way I gasped every time his skin brushed mine, and yet I felt like I couldn't hold it in.

"So I have a surprise for you" Shawn said as we sat in an Addison Lee.
"Oh gosh"
"We're actually staying in one of the suites in the Shard. We've got dinner booked for eight thirty and then all guests are invited to watch the fireworks from the Shards top lounge. Sound good?" He asked and my mouth just hung open.
I was sure it must have cost him a small fortune.
"Oh my god Shawn" I gasped as he told me.
"What? You don't want it?"
"No I do! God I do it's a dream come true! But you didn't have to do all that for me!" I gasped as he took my hand in his.
"I'd do anything for you" he smiled and I blushed as we drove on.

By the time we arrived it was around half past seven at night.
Our room was beyond describable.
It was immaculate. It was all white with extravagant styling. I was just in awe of it all.
All the other New Years that I've had we're just spent at home eating. This was beyond anything I could have imagined.
"Shawn this is amazing" I said as I stared at the city from the wall length windows. "I thought you'd go to a party back in America. Never did I think you'd want to spend it with me." I sighed.
"Why do you keep saying that?" He said and I turned quickly to see him looking almost angry.
"What? Did I say something wrong?" I asked feeling a worry building in my stomach.
"You're just always negative about me wanting to be with you. I want to spend time with you. Why do you never understand that?" He said and genuinely looked angry.
"Why are you getting all mad at me?!" I retaliated.
"Because I never understand it! You do it all the time" he said.
"Because I'm nobody! And you're everyone's dream! I've never ever had anyone like you in my life! And I've never been treated as well as you treat me now! So I'm sorry if I'm in disbelief sometimes" I said.
"Whatever. I just don't get it"
"You wouldn't get it. You never get it." I sighed and went back to looking out of the window.
"Fine. I'll just meet you down at dinner then" he said and I watched as he took his clothes and walked out of the room.

I groaned as he walked out but deep down I knew that he was probably just tired after the travel yesterday.
Then again it didn't really excuse him getting aggravated with me.
I sighed and decided to get in the shower and start getting ready.
The water felt calming and I enjoyed the silence.
But I couldn't help thinking that I wanted Shawn in there with me.

After I had been in the shower I put on my makeup, making sure to make it perfect, and my outfit which consisted of emerald crushed velvet wide leg trousers and a matching off the shoulder crop top. I paired it with some clear heels and shoved my phone into my pocket, but not before sharing a Snapchat of the view I had.

I gathered myself as I walked out of the room and into the lift. My legs were shaky as I walked from the elevator down the candlelit corridor to the restaurant.
I felt like everything was just going in slow motion. I couldn't wait to see Shawn, the desire inside me was getting overwhelming. But as I took another step, that's when I felt the arms around my waist.
They were not Shawn's arms.