New Beginning

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

⬆️ Just for the sake of everything that's messy ⬆️

Raya Lee-Williams

Chris placed soft kisses down my neck while he continued to shake my body in attempts to get me to wake up, but I was fine how I was, at peace with him.

"Stooop," I whined closing my eyes tighter hoping it would let my body know I wasn't ready to wake up just yet.

"I would love to let you continue sleeping but I'm just trying to tell you your nigga has been blowing you up for the last few minutes."

Just like that my eyes sprung up as I searched for my phone. It was going on 7:25 and to me it felt like I had 40 minutes of sleep. I laid my back against the headboard waiting for Danny to pick up.

"You finally up," he asked as soon as he answered.

"Yeah I guess so. What's up where are you?"

"I'm about to leave the airport. I wanted to ride with you the pick up the twins from school and I want to have a family day afterwards. We can get breakfast, shop, and hang around the pool."
I couldn't contain the smile that automatically came to my face. "Okay I would love that. I'll see you when you get here."

"Alright baby I love you."

I slightly turned away from Chris and replied a soft I love you too back to him. Chris rolled his eyes and walked to the bathroom.

"I know you got to get back to your husband so let me brush my teeth right quick," he said before allowing me to say anything. I automatically felt guilty on both ends. When I'm with Chris I forget all about being a wife. I just feel great. I wish the times were different, and I met him first. I wouldn't look any further than Chris and choose him in a heartbeat, but of course things were never that simple.

The car ride was quiet, all was heard was his music. He kept his eyes on the road and I rolled mine just because of the awkward tension. I didn't know what to say so I sighed and played a game on my phone. Once we arrived at my place I didn't get out until he finally made eye contact.

"What Raya," he asked, a slight irritation arising in his tone.

"Chris we just had a good night and you're just going to make the morning sour like this?"

"I ain't did shit to make anything sour," he responded, his attitude now full blown. I sighed once again, trying to not get frustrated with him as well.

"What's with the attitude then Chris? Look I'm sorry, but at the same time you know what it is right now with me. You know I'm a married woman so if you can't handle this, maybe you need to tell me that now."
We had a stare match for a while before he rubbed his face and sighed.

"You're right. My bad love, I'm just really feeling you and I swear the more we spend time the more I fall hard. I'm willing to wait this out and see where this takes us but I just want you to understand my intentions are not to be a sideline forever," he warned. I only smiled and kissed his hand, assuring him he wouldn't be a second choice forever.

"Aite I gotta get out of here. I don't need any drama from your temporary," he cracked a smile and so did I.

"You're so damn prideful Chris just shut up sometimes," I teased.

"Oh hush," it grew quiet again. "Sooo.. I know you said it was a one time thing, but I was wondering if I could get a kiss to make me feel better about earlier."
Our lips met again, sweeping me off my feet just the way it did last night. I felt the butterflies in my stomach flap swiftly as we shared our little intimate moment.

"Okay, okay that's enough," I giggled pulling away.

"Aite I'll leave you alone baby girl. When can I see you again?"

"You act like you're not my fitness trainer dude. You'll see me Tuesday morning like you always do."

"I mean outside of gym. I want to chill with you again. You know I'm starting to enjoy your company more and more."

"I'll find a way okay?"

"Bet, see you later beautiful."
I waved goodbye with a smile before rushing down the long entrance to my front door. I unlocked it and headed straight for my bedroom. I laid out some clothes and started up the shower water. I've been cuddled up with Chris all night and smelled just like his delicious ass so I made sure to place the clothes I had on towards the bottom of Danny and I's dirty clothes.
Once the water was adjusted to the heat I liked I climbed inside. I closed my eyes allowing the hot water to drip down my body. Only one person was on my mind and that was Chris. I can't help to wonder if meeting him going to be a blessing or a curse for me. Having him around is opening my eyes to how I'm settling. Danny and I's relationship is no where near the way it used to be. Of course all things change over time, that's just the function of life. No matter how badly we want things to remain it will never work that way. We learn, we grow, we change whether it be for better or worst that's entirely up to us. I'm changing and I've been changing for quite some time now. I've prayed for different and it seems as though God is using people to help me gravitate to that. It all started with my best friend when she opened my eyes on being a better woman to myself and now Chris is showing me I actually deserve happiness in its form of love regardless if it's with him or not. My children and their undying love just shows me I'll never be alone in this journey someone is there for me in my corner wanting the best for me. I'm evolving and as I move forward I can truly say I don't see Danny anywhere in my future.
By the time I got out the shower Danny had arrived. He looked good as always and I could smell his cologne from here. I returned the warm smile he was giving me as he watched me. We embraced in an affectionate hug as he kissed and rubbed over the favorite parts of my body.

"I missed you mama," he whispered in my neck. "You missed me?"

"Of course baby," I whispered back. He picked me up and placed me on our dresser. I could tell right away when his breath hitched in his throat from looking at my now exposed baby that he needed me in ways I wanted him. It probably was just plain lust at this point because I was just in another's man car nearly a hour ago and he was probably doing God knows what while he was away. Our sex is something we probably always could find a mutual understanding on.

"Make me feel good baby please," I whimpered as his fingers were already inside of me. This was wrong, but at this point who gave a fuck?

Yeaaah, so it seems like our good sis Raya is currently all over the place. Let's not judge her, just hold her up in prayer guys 🥴