New Beginning

CHAPTER THIRTY SEVEN

Two Days Later 

"Can't you just postpone your trip? I really don't want you to leave," Danny complained as he helped me place my bag in the car.

"No can do sweetie. I have a tight deadline and I have to make sure we get things done. It's just a weekend."

"How about me and the kids go?"

"No," I said rather too quickly. "I mean, it won't be a reason to. I'm barely going to be at my room. Let me get this done Danny and then I'm all yours okay?"

He sighed looking disappointed. "Okay. I guess I can wait. It's just like since we've been so separated I feel like these last few days have been like getting to know you all over again. Makes me realize I really did miss my friend."

I smiled as I felt my heart softened. He was making me feel bad by lying to him, but I just couldn't shake the fact that he lied to me for years with no remorse until now. Does it make me any better than him by doing what I'm doing? Absolutely not.  But I won't allow this to go on for too much longer. I've decided I want a divorce. It's finally time to let go. 

"I'll see you soon. Love you," I gave him a kiss. "And I love you my babies. Mommy's going to miss you sooo much!" I bent down to give the both of them the biggest hugs. I've been on the fence about my whole marriage mainly because of the kids, but everyone's been right. It's time to live for me. 
   When I drove off the first thing I did was call my cousin and Naomi. 

"Hey y'all!"

"Good morning you guys," Asia mumbled. I could barely see her from being under the covers.

"Where you at," I asked.

"Girl I'm at Tremaine's house tired as hell."

"Oh yeah, he must be wearing that thang out," Naomi joked shifting the phone to the other side. 

"Whew. Baby he is wearing me all the way out. This nigga acting like it's still valentine's. I can't take no more dick dammit!"
We all laughed hysterically at her crazy ass. 

"This is new to me. I didn't know Trey was a freak like that," I commented. 

"Don't be surprised if I'm pregnant. That's all I'm going to say."

"Jesus take the wheel," Naomi shook her head laughing. "So you on your way to ride some dick too miss mamas?"

"Geeeesh! Not necessarily. I am on the way to meet my boo though."

"Ooohh! So that's bae now is what you telling us," Asia asked excitedly.

"He's definitely making his way to that spot I won't even lie to y'all. But on a more serious note I believe I'm ready to get a divorce."
It was so much screaming coming from the line I had turned down the radio in my car.

"Wait... so WHAT," Naomi asked shocked. "We've been talking about this for ages, but wow this is still very surprising."

"You know I've been waiting for this moment for a very long time,"  Asia said. "Is Chris the reason you feel this way?"

"He's a great part of my decision, but I've really realized on how much I settled. Looking back now I really am disgusted with the choice I made to stay with a man who didn't have an ounce of respect for me and constantly, unapologetically proved he didn't. I confused love with struggle and insecurity. Chris has showed me a lot about myself. Now I'm deciding for me that I want something new."

"Baby we're so proud of you. You deserve the world and then some. If you feel like this is the best decision for you, just know we back and support you 1000%," Asia smiled proudly. Having support like them will make this new journey easier to live.

*****

Chris and I were currently about 15 minutes from our romantic cabin we've rented out for the weekend in Lake Arrowhead.

"I'm cooking for you this weekend," he told me. I raised my eyebrows, impressed.

"Oh wooow? You're making me feel special already."

"You are girl. Don't you ever forget that," he reminded me. "Annnd we are here," he drove into the driveway of the massive cabin. It was so adorable. I grew so excited as he parked. All I could imagine was a weekend of well needed fun. This is officially our Valentine's.

"Look at this fireplace. I've always wanted one when I was a little girl."

"Babe you need to look at this view though," Chris directed me over to the large windows showcasing all the various shaped mountains as well as the glistening lake. It was breath taking. I snuggled into Chris's chest as the both of us admired the scenery in silence.

"I'm so happy to be here with you," I confessed staring in his eyes. He gave me a sweet peck that led to a slow, intimate kiss in the end.

"Let's get unpacked now before this trip turn into me nailing you to the cross the whole time." As soon as we got upstairs my mouth dropped.

"Oh my Goood! Chris," I hugged him so quickly as I admired the layout of our room. Once again the boy has outdone himself. Roses, rose petals, chocolates, candles, balloons, and gifts were showcased on display making my entire body swoon. 

"Can you open your gifts now. It's been so hard not telling your nosy ass what I got you," he teased.  I walked over trying to decide what I wanted to open first. I started with the Chanel bag that was in a beautiful blue shade I haven't seen before. 

"It's a custom color. I know you love blue and I know how much you don't like looking like other hoes as you say," he explained with a smirk quoting me word for word.

"You know me so well," I laughed admiring the bag. She was pretty as hell, I couldn't wait to rock a bad ass outfit with this. When I opened the bag there was perfume, body wash, lotion, and a variety of self care products inside. Next, he bought me two pairs of Louis Vuitton heels as well as a really cute pair of Balenciaga sneakers. The last box I opened had a diamond encrusted necklace as well as a diamond encrusted ring that was just as beautiful to match. 

"It's a ring of manifestation. I'm going to marry you one day and I want this ring to keep your finger warm until the day I do," Chris replied softly. He brought tears to my eyes as he placed the ring on my finger. He was a man of intention and I was so blessed to have him. I can't express it  enough how much he means to me in such a little amount of time.

"Thank you baby. Everything is so beautiful and just so me," I chuckled as tears fell. "God had to be thinking tough about your girl to send me someone like you." I hugged him again as I placed multiple kisses all over his perfect face. After our little sap moment I presented the gifts I got from him. I bought him an iced out Rollie Watch, several pair of 1s because that's one of his favorite Jordan shoes, cologne, and a few stacks to spoil himself with. All in all, so far everything was going perfect. I couldn't imagine anything going wrong. He and I are on cloud 9 together. Here's to an amazing weekend!