#UM20
I was eating my sundae quietly, my heart was so heavy and crowded with too many things—pain and frustration were going strong as time passes.
Hindi ko alam kung nakailang kain na ako ng sundae dito pero pagtingin ko sa labas ng Mcdo ay madilim na ang kalangitan, lights from the cars were dancing one way as they passed the road. Huminga ako ng malalim, ang mga balikat ko ay bagsak at pagod.
Bakit kasi hindi ako nabiyayaan ng matalinong utak? Matalino naman ang Papa ko, matalino ang Mama ko, pero bakit? Bakit ganito ako?
Naalala ko pa noong narinig ko si Gabanni na nagkukwento tungkol sa Polsci, wala raw siyang katanungan at naipasa iyon ng walang paghihirap. Isa pa si Gunther na nagtapos naman ng Accountancy, kung tutuusin ay mas mahirap iyon pero naipasa at natapos niya na uno ang lahat ng grado. Kung titingnan ang dalawang kapatid ko sa kahit anong aspeto, walang-wala ako.
My heart hurt again, I downed another sundae and tears began to fall. I rested my cheek on the cold table while my mind was questioning myself why's.
I texted Chancent that I'm fine, hindi ko na sinabi sa kanyang lumabas ako dahil ayaw ko siyang istorbohin. I know he's busy with work, minsan nga nahihiya ako dahil palagi siyang naglalaan ng oras sa akin kahit pagod.
I appreciate him so much, sana hindi siya idamay ni Mommy sa kung ano mang pagkakamali ko.
I closed my eyes while tears were continuously flowing. Suddenly, I heard and felt a tray sliding on the table that made me open my eyes, I lazily sat up to see who dared to do that.
Heidden in a black shirt, gray sweatshorts and slippers—sat down on the chair in front of me, his hair was simply down, cutting in the middle. He looked fresh from the shower.
My lips trembled a bit as my forehead wrinkled.
"Ang daming upuan, dito ka pa nanggulo," tahimik at kaswal kong sinabi.
He shrugged and continued discharging the his food from the tray to the table, nilapag niya sa kabilang upuan ang tray pagtapos. His eyes landed on my empty sundae cups, I downed exactly six and yet my brain wasn't freezing. Nag-aapoy pa rin sa mga iniisip.
He arched a brow. "You broke up?"
My face distorted.
"Of course not!" I realized how bad my situation is, ang dami ko ngang nakain na ice cream at halatang may pinagdadaanan.
His lips parted slightly as he nods. "Ah, magbebreak pa lang."
"What!?" I hissed. "Hindi kami break at hindi magbebreak, okay?"
He started eating.
"Why are you here with a lot of sundaes, then?"
I sighed, I wanted to fire him irritation but I'm tired to even start.
"Bagsak ako sa isang exam, iyon lang."
He was chewing his food, he took a sip on his pineapple juice before speaking.
"So?"
"So?" I copied with irritation and glare, pinahiran ko ang luha dahil natutuyo na iyon.
"So what if you failed the exam? Kailangan ba talagang magmaktol kapag bumabagsak?"
I scoffed painfully. "Are you seriously taking everything this easy? I'm crying because it hurts that I tried my best to pass the exam but I still failed!"
Ang sakit-sakit, lalo pa noong makita ko ang disappointment ni Mommy sa mga mata. Iyon kasi ang pinakainiiwasan ko, ayaw ko siyang madismaya sa akin dahil alam ko ang estado bilang anak. Paano pa kung malalaman ni Gabanni iyon? I want this week to pass already.
