#UM24
"Madalas ba siyang aalis sa mga susunod na buwan?" tahimik kong tanong kay Heidden habang kumakain kami.
Nagkatinginan kami nang mag-angat siya ng mga mata mula sa kanyang pagkain. I shrugged and puckered my lips.
"I mean, tuwing kailan ang balik niya?"
Nakakahiya at baka masabihan na naman ako ng clingy. Natural lang iyon sa magkarelasyon, pero iiwasan ko na lang din para iwas init ulo.
"Depends. May mga trips na inaabot ng ilang buwan, one of the reasons why some businessmen are single." He chuckled. "They're so busy."
"Hindi naman busy masyado si Chance, 'tsaka nasa isang lugar lang siya."
He nodded and took another spoonful of his food. "That's why he needs to be busy again to do his job, he skipped a lot of trips and meetings. Nakaligtaan niyang alagaan ang ibang hawak niyang hotels sa New York at Italy."
I could only sigh, I simply played the straw in my drinks. I don't want that, seriously. I'm so immature when it comes to this situation, I never really liked it.
"You need to understand it, it's for the future."
"But you're already rich! He has lots of money and I can work, we can share together for the future!"
His lips sided along with his brow.
"You sure, you'll be together until the future, huh?"
I gasped in disbelief. "Why not? We planned it!"
Medyo may kaba akong naramdaman sa pag-iisip ng kinabukasan. Masyado pang malayo ang future para sa amin at hindi permanente ang takbo ng oras kaya natatakot ako na maglaho na lang bigla ang mga plano kasama siya.
He sighed.
"Future is infinite, you can't tell that just because you planned it together. There would be a lot of struggles to come. Katulad niyan, ngayong magiging abala si Chance sa business world-hindi ka na mapakali, paano pa sa mga susunod?"
I know, damn!
"I just really hate Long Distance Relationship, I don't think I can wait while thinking about him." I pouted. "But I'll try!"
Iba naman iyon, e. LDR isn't my thing and I don't think it will be, I love Chance's presence around me!
"You'll try? Paano kung hindi mo nga kaya?"
I blinked, hindi makasagot agad doon dahil wala akong makapang mga salita sa dila. I feel suddenly blocked, paano nga kaya kung sa pagsubok ko ay hindi ko pala talaga kaya?
I shrugged hesitantly. "Maybe we can take a break."
I think so? Well, it's a break for the better.
"Take a break like how?"
"Uhm..." I bit my bottom lip. "Break like for years?"
His lips parted as he sighed. "Seriously?"
I nodded. "Yes."
I'm thinking about myself here. Since I don't really wanna be problematic about our Long Distance Relationship, I think we need to break up so there would be no stress for me. I'll enter Law School, that's the only struggle I could accept first of all! Hanggang sa makagraduate lang naman ako, ilang taon lang iyon. Abala rin naman si Chance, mapag-uusapan iyon.
"That's too selfish." He shook his head.
I shrugged. "I really don't know yet, I'm not sure about my decisions. Siguro nasasabi ko lang 'to dahil wala si Chance pero hindi ko talaga kaya. Ewan ko, ang gulo ko." Tipid na natawa ako sa sarili.
