#UM30
I was wriggling from his hold and he never let go until we reached the parking area, sa inis niyang pagbitiw sa braso ko ay siyang hampas ko sa kanyang dibdib at tulak pero hindi siya natinag kahit kaunti—hindi rin sumalag at hinayaan ako sa panggigigil ko sa kanyang masaktan.
"Gago ka talaga! Babaero! Pinsan ko pa talaga, Chancent!" gitil kong sigaw sa kanya at suminghap. "Ex pa ng pinsan mo! Hindi ka na nahiya?"
His eyes were darkly looking at me, letting me trash talk him. I noticed his outfit, he's wearing a white shirt and sweatshorts—he looks like he just woke up from bed and it doesn't suit the place where I saw him.
"Ano, ha? Tinawagan ka ni Patch, 'no, para magpasundo dahil lasing na siya. Wow." I smirked, calming myself. "I don't know why did I trust your last message and told myself that I'd be better, too, after everything happened. You're a freaking liar."
"No, you never trusted me, Sileas. Stop fucking covering it using the goddamn situation here because I never cheated on you even we broke up!" he hissed.
I shook my head. "No, liar asshole! Why don't you just fuck with her and let me leave? Bakit mag-uusap pa tayo? Wala na 'tong saysay, Chance. Magpatuloy na lang kayo ni Patch, bagay naman kayo."
Habang tumatagal ang tingin ko sa kanya ay lalong nagagalit ang kalooban ko kasabay ng pag-iinit ng mga mata dahil sa pangungulila. Magulo man isipin ay iyon ang nararamdaman ko, he's hurting me and making me miss him at the same damn time. I wanted so bad to hug him and tell him every painful thing happened to my world without him but I couldn't just be pathetic.
I hate that I still fucking love him.
Mariin siyang nakatitig sa akin at ramdam ko ang init ng inis niya sa pamamagitan lamang noon, his jaw was clenching repeatedly as if he was ready to punch if I say a word against him again.
Lumunok ako at pinigil ang emosyon, I took a step to leave but he gripped on my wrist to take me back on the my ground.
"Iyan ang hirap sayo. Sarili mo lang ang parating pinaniniwalaan mo, you're an aspiring lawyer, Sileas. Learn to fucking know the details before speculating."
My heart ached. See, he doesn't even know about it.
I rolled my eyes. "Well, to inform you, I'm not gonna be a lawyer anymore so... I don't really need to learn that. It's better to assume than expect that you're a faithful man but a friggin' asshole behind me!"
Kumunot ang noo niya sa sinabi ko, nakita ko ang daplis ng pag-aalala sa mga mata niya na tila maraming katanungan.
"Sino ba ang walang pasabi na hiwalay na pala tayo at humalik kay Heidden?" mariin niyang sambit. "Pinsan ko rin naman iyon, pero hindi kita pinandirihan gaya ng ginagawa mo sa akin ngayon, to think that I never kissed Patch in any fucking angle behind you and I still love you even without so much explanation why you did it."
"Ilang beses kitang iniintindi dahil alam kong bata ka pa at magbabago pa ang mga desisyon mo, sa atin, sa lahat... pero tangina, ngayon pakinggan mo ako." He licked his lips and inhaled. "I went here to take my sister home because she's drunk there with your cousin, she texted me that they can't drive anymore. Is that a sin, Sileas?"
I gritted my teeth even though my insides were melting. He looked so annoyed but he was controlling it while explaining things in a stern way, looking in my eyes straightly. I was nervous while time's passing.
"And I did my last message to you, I went to New York for work but days ago, Mama had an attack that made me go back here to see her. What else do you wanna hear?" he asked and raised a brow when I didn't talk. "Come on, talk and prove a fucking point. Where's the cheating there? Did you see me kissing Patch? Or anyone else?" he sounds so sarcastic now.
