One More Chance
I'm with my ex today. We are currently in a fake date.
It's a very hot and sunny day. There is supposed to be no chance for any raindrop to show. But a rain came pouring after she has witnessed an event that felt as if going on forever.
"I did not want to look too obvious to him. Stirring his emotions might bring him back to me, right?" She whispered to herself with mixed feelings.
Her back looked so lonely, as it gets wet slowly by the pouring rain.
I wanted to approach her lend my umbrella, but meddling with her affairs is not within my reach. So I took two steps back instead, as if tiptoeing away from a baby.
But judging by her state, I am safe to say she is sensitive enough to sense my presence from way back 10 feet from her. I knew this date is over the moment she lay her eyes on him, and I was supposed to get out of the scene.
I took another step back, planning on leaving.
"What are you doing?" asked Raven. She turned her head to me and wiped her tears. "It is not what you think. I am not crying because of what I witnessed. In fact, these are not tears at all."
Making tears mix with the rain to look like raindrops because it was raining did not seem to soothe me at all. I am fully aware why she's crying and the reason for trying to hide it. I am supposed to just accept it and watch her, but I just couldn't let it slide.
It is very clear why she was crying, and I wanted to help her to get through, so I move closer to her and handed her my handkerchief. It's the least I could do. "Here. Wipe your tears. You know you look ugly when you cry, right?"
After giggling about what I have said, a sudden smack at the side of my head followed. "You think it's funny?" she asked, trying to stop her tears.
To tell me that after she laughed to it herself is very like herself. She is still herself, it is still fine.
With this kind of atmosphere, a sunny bright sky overcame by cold heavy rains, a girl standing on the side of a street across a restaurant, and her boyfriend having an affair with some other girl inside that restaurant. There is nothing I can think of but to offer my shoulders to cry on.
"Just so you know. I am not crying in front of you because I want to come back to you. I'm not trying to look cute. You are my Ex, and that, that guy is my boyfriend, you are just a friend to me now." she uttered while sobbing her tears away.
I know that, ofcourse I do, but I cannot just stand here and watch her cry over some jerk.
"Stay here, hold my umbrella."
I left her there and went inside the restaurant, punched the guy in the face and went out.
Of course it did not end there. He followed me outside and shouted. "Hey! Who the f*ck are you!?"
He continue walking towards me and asked again "I asked who the f*ck are you!?" His gesture was that of a thug ready to throw a punch.
"My bad." I said, "I thought you were a friend, I guess I was wrong." I smirked then turned away from him.
After few steps, "Did you just laugh?" I sensed a rapid blow of air in my right ear. I turned to my left, avoided his pathetic punch, and followed it up with a high kick. "What the hell is your problem?" I stood up firm while trying to predict his next move.
"I said what the hell is your problem?!" He is filled with anger, but still looked so cheap.
He approached me slowly and looked at me fiercely. It did not scare me at all, I guess he hasn't notice Raven yet.
He threw another punch, which I avoided. I got irritated and throw a punch straight to his face. "I did not know you were this pathetic." I said.
I punched him again but was stopped by Raven.
"Raven?" said the guy in the state of shock. "Who the f*ck is that guy. Why is he with you!?" It was rich coming from him, so I went and punched him again.
"Ahh~ So you are her ex? And what? What the f*ck is you business with her?" He asked me. I could not control my anger, so I gestured myself ready for another punch.
With the punch hanging in the air, I spoke, "And what the hell is your business with another girl in a restaurant, making your girlfriend watch outside in the rain?!"
"Caleb, Stop! Just stop." Raven shouted.
If not for her, I might be in an interrogation room and that guy in hospital.
As a result of my hothead, I took Raven with me and went off.
"So that is your so-called boyfriend? I did not know you have a taste for pathetic peasants." I held her hand and dragged her with me.
Refusing to come with me, she pushed me away "Why did you do that?" she asked.
"You were hurting, crying, and broken as f*ck, and what? You want me to just watch you there? I did not break up with you just to see that" I answered furiously. I could not accept the fact that she asked to go out with me just to make a dirty son of a bitch jealous.
But bullshit happens and he didn't even notice until I went and punched him in the face.
"Was that why you asked me out today, despite me being your ex?" I asked in anger.
"I know you already knew I only asked you to date me today to make him jealous. But what the hell did you do that for?" I could not reply to that.
After several seconds of silence, I spoke, with a gentle tone. "I know you didn't come back because of me, you loving me right now is just my fantasy, probably because you only want to make him feel jealous that it looked that way to me." I said while smiling, I did not want her to see my disappointment.
"Let me ask you a favor this once." I added "Can you let go of him, and completely come back to me? Can your act today just be true again, and can I be the reason that you are loving me again?"
She did not reply. I smiled bitterly "Can I be the reason, and not him?" I know I broke her hearr before. I was just too dense to notice it.
I am an idiot for letting her slip down from my arms before. I couldn't do anything before, so I want to do better now.
She started to tear up then hugged me tightly. "I regretted breaking up with you." she said. "You never broke my heart, that was not your fault."
I reciprocate her hug with a tighter one, and told her "I still love you, and I always will."
