Unexpected // sm

Chapter 37

        “I can tell, you don’t agree. You just don’t see it right now. You will. Someday I hope you see how amazing you are.” Cam smiled down at me, and I returned it. He always knew what I was thinking, it was great. I realized how tired I was, and I closed my eyes.

        “Shh, she’s waking up.” I opened my eyes all the way and saw what looked like Matthew, leaning over me. My eyes adjusted, and I saw that it was him. I felt lost. Wait, Cam was there when I fell asleep, now him? I sat up, and realized my feet were resting in Cam’s lap, and my head had been on Matthew’s lap. I looked at Cam for an answer.

        “I called him. I’m sorry.” He got up and went to his bedroom, closing the door. I moved to the other end of the couch, not wanting him to be here, I didn’t want to talk to him.

        “Hey, no. Please talk to me. I didn’t see anything at the beach, I was under the water, but Cameron told me. I’m so confused, Shawn isn’t the type of guy to be so opposite of who he is.” He flipped his hair to the side, and looked at me carefully. I just shook my head. Obviously, he didn’t know much about Shawn. He did what he wanted, and that included constantly breaking me down. I was done. “Done.” I whispered, and looked at Matthew. He nodded in understanding. 

          “I never told you how sorry I was that he treated you so badly. I’m sorry that I let him take you from me. I loved you so much, and I wanted you to be happy. I never thought he would end up like that. I feel like I let you down and I wish I would’ve been there for you at the end. I was too busy making a name for myself, I didn’t once stop to think about how you were. I was too mad at you for picking him, I never thought that maybe, life wasn’t great for you after all. I apologize for that, but I am never leaving. I don’t care if we never see each other again after today, but I am not going to ever let you be alone. If you need me, I’m there. Nothing you could ever say or do, would change how I feel about you. I’ve loved you since the beginning, I have never met one girl like you, ever. You’re so unique, and different. I wish you could see how beautiful you are and I wish you knew how incredible you are. You’re everything a guy could ever want, and I thank the lord every night that I met you.” Matthew never broke our stare, and his eyes burned with honesty. 

        I had never heard anyone say such a thing to me. I’d never understand how he thought so highly of me. I had always been terrible to him. But yet, he was unconditionally there for me. It made everything seem so drab compared to him. He was just a teenage guy who had became famous through his humor. I never thought there coud be so much inside of a person.

         It's incredible. I was so thankful that I went to that MAGCON, even if it somewhat ruined my life, because I met the most amazing people in the whole world. I find it funny, that you can think someone is so good without knowing them, and then you become aware of it. It stunned me how life worked. But what’s inside of him, that’s why I knew he was different. He had such a huge heart and he showed it in everything he did, every day. I would never let this boy be taken away from me. I couldn’t, not after what we had been through.

        I practically tackled him, and gave him the strongest hug ever given. I wanted to express how much I loved him, but I couldn’t make myself speak. All I did was not release my grip on him, not for a second.