Unexpected // sm

Chapter 32

        I shook my head and turned away from him. I think at that point, he got the hint and he shut up. I saw Matthew and Jack, who were walking out of the water towards us. The water glinted off of Matthew’s body, highlighting every feature. I realized I was staring and I moved my gaze to the sand beneath his feet. I suddenly saw images, or how we used to be at that event. I remember the way he pulled me into that storage room, after he freaked about having the picture posted of us sleeping. I thought in that moment that I was in love.

        The way he cared for me was like no other. I missed how we slept that night, how comfortable we were. My head under his chin, his bare chest inches from my face. That’s how we always slept, and it had been our thing from then on. I smiled to myself, wondering when I ever started calling him Matthew. He was always Matt. I guess when we drifted apart, I felt my right to shorten up his name was revoked. I wish I could have gone back, and chose him in those days.

         He would of never given up on me, we would of been together happily. I knew how happy he could make me, but I was stunned by the feeling Shawn put off. He effected me, in such a way that I became blind to Matthew. Sometimes, I used to wonder what life would be like if I had not kissed Shawn that one time in my hotel after Cam… well after he found out about Cam. I might not of ever been upset and ran out, what if I never talked to Matthew that night? I wouldn’t of and him in my sights. But, maybe I wouldn’t of had such aggressive feelings for Shawn.

        My mind was running too fast for me to comprehend. Maybe that’s why I didn’t see Matthew sit next to me, or why I didn’t feel him hit my arm to get my attention. I raised an eyebrow at him, but it was too late. I knew what he meant. About 40 feet away, walking slowly towards us with his chin up high, was the man I saw in my dreams and my nightmares.

        “Shawn! There you are man! I didn’t think you would ever show up!” Jack J got up from his towel and ran to him, giving him a pat on the back. They continued walking our way, and they reached us entirely too fast for me. Wait, Jack invited him? What the hell? Why would he do that? He knew I was coming. I didn’t mean to sound selfish, but I’m pretty sure Shawn felt the same way.

        “Um, you didn’t tell me she was here. Why is she here?” Shawn asked frantically, obviously not caring if I heard or not. Yep, there was the Shawn I knew. I stood up, and started walking towards the way he came from, not wanting to make a big deal of this at all. I didn’t need him to be glaring at me all damn day. I walked past him without a word, and kept going.

        “Where in the..? Mykenna no don’t go!” I heard Matthew yell after me, as he must of realized I was leaving. I didn’t want to be near Shawn. I felt sick, and kept walking.

        A minute later, a running Matthew appeared at my side. “Mykenna, you, can’t, holy shit you walk fast! You can’t go, please. Don’t, don’t let him ruin your day again.” He was half bent over, his hands on his knees, breathless. “Please, for me? I want to have a beach day with you, and you haven’t even got in the water yet. Cmon. Let’s ignore that asshole and have us some fun. Okay?”

         I rolled my eyes and nodded slowly before turning on my heel, walking back to the beach. I owed this to Matthew, I didn’t want to ruin his day also. I bet the other boys were laughing about me, probably about how much of a drama queen I was. I shrugged off the idea as I came upon Shawn sitting with his back to me, Jack and Jack sitting on the sand. I walked right past him, and I felt my left foot catch on something.

        I tripped, my face nearly colliding with the sand before I caught myself on my knees. I turned back and saw Shawn’s foot sticking out slightly. He began to laugh and lied down on the towel, my towel. I heard Matthew start to say something to him before I shook my head. I got up, brushed myself off, and lied down on the spare towel in between the Jacks, who were both caught up in starting a conversation with Shawn. As if he was just so exciting to talk to. I felt like gagging.

        I turned my head to the side, where Matthew had just sat down. His eyes did not meet mine though, they were focused on my legs. My thighs, actually. He bit his lip, and I blinked slowly at him. Was he biting his lip over my legs? Wow. I smiled, and his eyes jumped to mine, and I saw his apology in them. I smiled and shook my head, amused at his situation. He shrugged, and I pointed towards the water. His smile grew, and I knew he understood me.

         “Yall, why are we at a beach, and not even swimming. Cmon guys! And lady.” Matthew stood up and winked at me, before pulling off the shirt he must had slipped on before running after me. I saw the muscles in his arms move, and I was mesmerized.

        “Yeah! He’s got a point actually.” Jack G pulled off his shirt also, and ran to the water wearing only his light blue bottoms. Jack J shrugged and stood up, with matching bottoms on. Matthew raised his eyebrows at me and I stood up. He shook his head and nodded towards my body. I looked down and realized I had my tank and shorts on still. I groaned. I heard Jack run after Jack, and heard them screaming in the water. I slowly pulled off my tank top, and then stripped off my shorts, before walking towards the water with Matthew. We waded in, with the water to our hips, before I realized that Shawn was still sitting on the beach, alone. Looking right at me.