Chapter 41

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by shelbywrite

by shelbywrite

The doctor said I could go home, so we left, and by the time we had reached the apartment, I was even more upset than I was before. I hated to let people down, to upset them, because I knew how much it hurt. I walked into the apartment, and slumped down on the couch.

“I wanted you to know that they took away your medicine, so that you wouldn’t um, well you know. I’m sorry. But you don’t need them, remember that.” Cam smiled at me, and I remained emotionless. How nice. Now, it would be even worse. I would have twice the amount of thoughts. I knew this was going to be hard, and I let my head droop into my hands. I wish there was some way that I could get better.

I was tired of being stuck, not doing anything. I pulled out my phone, and noticed the many messages from Matthew. I deleted all 23 of them, before I went to my twitter. I didn’t know why, but I just felt like it. I scrolled through, not really looking at anything. I huffed. This was boring.

“Cam, can you come here?” I whispered, hoping he might hear from 25 feet away. He did, and literally jumped over the back of the couch to sit next to me, almost falling flat on his face in the process. I giggled at his urgency, and immediately stuck a hand over my mouth. I didn’t remember the last time I giggled, or even laughed.

“Holy shit did you just giggle? I haven’t heard you laugh, in like, two months. I forgot how cute you are when you laugh.” He playfully grabbed my face, and squeezed my cheek, as if he was an old lady talking to a young boy. I smiled, and brought him into a hug. I honestly didn’t know what my life would be like without him. I would probably be dead, or back in Kansas City. I dug my nails into his back, and he rested his chin on my head. “

I don’t want you to be sad okay? Let’s go out and do something tomorrow. Let’s go to the carnival along the beach! It used to be your favorite.” He smiled at me and I nodded, not sure of myself. I didn’t want to be around that many people, but I needed to get out of this apartment.

“Alright! Let’s get some sleep, and then in the morning we’ll go.” Cam stood up, and grabbed my hand, pulling me towards my room. I was so tired, and I could barely walk. We reached my door, and he gave me a small wave. I shook my head, and walked to his bed instead. I couldn’t sleep alone tonight, plus his bed is more comfortable. I crawled in, and I was out in seconds.

“Jesus Mykenna why are you such a heavy sleeper? THERE YOU GO, FINALLY!” Cam jumped off of me and chuckled. I sighed, remembering what I promised him yesterday. The carnival. Yippee. I got up, and went to my room to get ready, while I smelled him cooking bacon. My favorite. I quickly took a shower, and got dressed in a pair of high waisted shorts, and a white crop top with cap sleeves.

I smiled in the mirror, I felt pretty. I did my makeup, taking my time. I wasn’t in a good mood, but I felt a underlying sense of happiness. It wasn’t much, but enough to give me hope that maybe today, I would be okay without my pills. I straightened my long hair, letting it flow freely down my back. I never wore it up. I hated the way it made my face look, because I had a somewhat round face which made me look terrible. I walked out to the kitchen, where there was a large plate full of bacon.

He knew me too well. I sat down next to him at the barstool, and smiled a thank you at him. I usually tried to watch what I eat, because I wanted to keep a good figure. But damn, the bacon was looking amazing, and I couldn’t help myself. I ate the entire plate, in about 3 minutes. “There’s the Mykenna I know.” Cam smiled at me, and hopped up to put my plate in the dishwasher. I went to my room and quickly brushed my teeth. My phone buzzed, and I looked down to see a new message.

From: Elizabeth

I want you to know I love you so much, and I miss you. Stay strong girl, I’ll see you in a month and a half.

I nearly started crying. Even she knew about what had happened. I felt like a walking bomb, and everyone was waiting for me to explode, and I finally had. They just never thought it would be like that. I prayed to God that Shawn knew nothing of it. I didn’t want him to gain any satisfaction over it. “Ready?” Cam yelled out to me, and I followed him out the apartment, needing some fresh air.