Unexpected // sm

Chapter 55

After 6 more hours, we were finally done at the mall. Elizabeth had a dress, and a pair of shoes. All that looking and that was all she had bought. I felt like smacking her with the shoes, but I refrained from it. Even as we walked into the crowded movie theater, she was gabbing and giggling, her arm linked through Nash's. I stared at her and nearly tripped on a row of seats before Casen caught me.

"Easy. Spacing out a lot?" He said, and I shook my head to clear it. I was too busy wondering what Shawn was doing. I hope he wouldn't meet up with any of his old friends. He would just party all night and get drunk, what he used to do night after night. I wanted to believe he was smart enough not to do that.

The movie started playing, but my mind was hardly on it. I was too busy thinking about him. I vaguely noticed the lights come on and people file out of their seats. It wasn't until Elizabeth was shaking me, did I realize it was over. I didn't even recall what it was called. Casen finally grabbed my arm to pull me out of the room. "Tired. Sorry." I apologetically smiled at them and kept walking to the car. It was chilly outside and I wished I had something covering my legs. The car was a blast of warm air, and Nash quickly set us on our way home. I noticed Casen had come with us, but didn't question it. I leaned my head agaisnt the window and closed my eyes.

I remember one time when Elizabeth and I were almost freshmen, she showed me a video of some guys. I watched it, thinking, who the hell are these guys? They seemed like total idiots. I remember thinking, there was a reason these guys were just in a hotel room by themselves. They didn't have anything going for them. She had looked upset, but she blew it off. She said it was just a stupid group of boys. I shrugged. They were cute and all, but I never thought I would follow up on them. I didn't think anything of it. Until about a month later, summer started and we hung out more. One night, we watched a couple of their videos. I mentally tried to remember their names, and it was hard for me. But, I wanted to remember these boys. I obviously found Cam first. I thought he was perfect. He just was though, in everything he did. I followed everything he did on social media, and he basically became my life.

I wish I knew then how much it would lead up to in my life. Sometimes, during those days, I would watch those boys all night long. The same pointless videos on repeat. A while later, a few started singing. I listened to them, and they were good. Then I stumbled across Shawn. It was a cover of some song I had hated. But he brought life to it. He had something about him that added more to a song than the lyrics and I knew I loved him for it. From that point on, I was into Shawn a little. I waited for hours, just to download his songs first. I never listened to music that much until I heard him sing. He basically changed my view on music in general. But of course, I was too head over heels for Cam to ever picture something with Shawn.

I think we all have some moment in our lives that change us. It had to be the first time I heard Shawn sing. He is even better now. But the way he sang, with his eyes closed, his face scrunched up. It hit me hard and I never looked back from there. Damn, sometimes I wish I never heard him. But I know it's not true. I never had anything major in my life, nothing that took up most of me. He filled that spot quickly, all through three or four minute videos, even more than Cam did. I had so much to thank him for, and he didn't even know.