Out Of My Mind *H.S.*

Chapter Thirty-Eight

*Skylynn's POV*

You know feeling of loss and pain? I've been feeling that way for almost two weeks. Ever since I wrote that letter and sent it I've been in pain literally heartache. To say I regret sending him the letter is an understatement. I've thought about it and look back thinking what if I didn't send him the letter? What if I never opened the door and let his father in? What if I wasn't stupid?

I hate that I'm feeling so much pain. I hate that I'm living on my own again. I miss everyone. I miss him.

Liam and MaryJean have been coming by to check on me but that's it. I don't want to see the others it'll just make this harder. I mean would I like to see them and hang out with them? Yes, of course. But then it would get back to Harry. He's been their friend long before me so I don't want to come between them.

Harry has yet to come and get his stuff which pisses me off but also relieves me. To see his stuff just lying around makes me feel comfort. I look at all the pictures we took together and smile at the memory. I rummage through some of his stuff and come across the photo book I made him. Everything is still there besides the song book I gave him, my song book.

I walk over to where he gave me the CD with his song to me on it, I pick it up and place it into my computer to listen to it.

When it comes on I hear his beautiful raspy voice and a steady melody in the background. It sounds so amazing, beautiful. I wish I could hear it live. His voice is so unique and raspy. I really miss him.

Sometimes when I look back at the memories with Harry I find myself crying and laughing. Like the time we went to ice- skating and he kept falling down.

*flashback*

"Harry I think you're doing it wrong." I say through laughter

"What are you talking about I'm amazing." he states coming towards me falling in the process

"Yes! Definitely amazing. Lets give you a round of applause." I joke clapping my hands

"Shit-ass." he mutters

"Ass-hole." I smirk

We began laughing at each then he takes my hand and we skate together with me helping him stand up. Tonight was really fun, watching Harry fall about fifty times is hilarious!

"I love you Sky."

'"I love you Haz."

*flashback over*

Thinking back to that time makes me smile. He fell every five minutes and never failed to make me laugh.

Memories like those are what makes me smile and laugh, but also makes me tear up. Now their just distant memories..

Only memories.

That's all we are now is beautiful-tragic memory.

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Liam had said he would come by today to hang out and what not. Sophia doesn't know but I told him not to. I haven't seen any of them since the day I let Des in the house.

Maybe things would be different if we both didn't have so many bad pasts. I mean we will be fine for awhile then something comes in like a wrecking ball destroying everything in the making.

KNOCK KNOCK

My thoughts are interrupted by someone at the door its probably Liam coming over. I begin walking to the door and when I open it, its not just just Liam. Zayn's with him too.